THE PERFECT PAIR

New Blog!!!

2010-07-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

I know it's been awhile since I've updated this blog but it's been for a very good reason I promise! I've been busy with a new business venture that has me both SUPER excited and a little nervous at the same time.

Please know that I will STOP posting on this blog but will continue to update you all on my new blog site Jennifer Terrero Photography. I will still continue to give you updates on both BC and Sophia like I have in the past... just think of this as a bonus because you'll get to see TONS of pictures!!!!! You know that I'm totally going to use my children as my test subjects! :)

Thank you ALL for sticking by me and this blog for so long. I really appreciate you all and hope that you will all continue to follow me at the new blog. Please remember to bookmark the new link!!!!

Today is the new launch date so I'm SUPER excited to share it with you guys!!!! Hope you get as excited as I am about it!

BC turns 20mths!!!

2010-06-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

Oh my baby boy... cant believe he is in the 20 digits already!!! He is soooooo close to turning 2 it's scary... Mama is not ready for that yet!

What can I say about my little man... he is a BUNCH of fun but OMG does he have attitude!!!! I wonder where he gets it from! (wink wink)

He is all about doing things on his own these days. He likes to put his shoes on and then takes them off. He likes to take his pants off and tries to put them on again (he does a good job and can get them to his booty but then decides its time to get them off again). He likes to feed himself and drink out of a cup!

He LOVES LOVES to draw, play, and read books. I have bins in his room filled with different toys (like cars, blocks, logo's, etc...) and I cant count the times I have to put them all away during the day.

He is a BOY in everywhere with being destructive and messy too! OMG... you should see what my living room looks like most of the day... NOT cute!!!

He is talking a lot more now too. I remember the days when I was a bit worried about this and thinking to myself... that he might not catch on to words soon but BOY I shouldn't have rushed it. Let me give you an example... the other day I went to Walmart to get some fruit real quick... he was sitting in the shopping cart and he saw an ad for water... so the whole time he was screaming AGUA... Mama AGUA.... Mama AGUA... MAMA!!!! I had left his sippy in the car since I was running inside for a quick trip... boy was that a mistake. Then as I'm getting fruit he sees the "apples".... then he started with APPLE... APPLE... APPLE!!!! I almost ran out of the store! LOL!!!

He has also hit the stage of:

- likes to make me run after him

- touching stuff he KNOWS he's not suppose to but looks at me to catch my eye like saying... look at what I got, and then when I run after him he throws a tantrum when I take it away

- I KNOW I'm not suppose to throw food but I'm going to do it anyway even though my Dada and Mama have said multiple times "do you want to go on time out?

- I'm going to break out a smile when I know I'm in trouble to see if it softens Mama up (which it's sad to say but it works most of the time)

- when I Mama says "don't touch" it's like saying "sure you can have it" and then Mama takes it away and he'll look at me, get mad and touch it again right in front of my face so I'm telling him over and over again not to touch it or he will get in big trouble and he does it anyway (this one is my least favorite)

YES it's interesting!!!!! Boy if this is not some of the terrible 2's I'm SCARED to know what's coming!!! LOL!!!!

BUT... even with all of THAT... he is STILL extremely LOVABLE!!!! He is the most lovable baby boy I know. I swear to you the way he touches my face to cuddle with me , hugs me, gives me besos, gives us group hugs and will NEVER forget one of us in the group hug, and the way he reaches for me to HOLD him because only Mommy knows how to make him feel all better... is pretty PRICELESS in my book!

Here are some pictures of my little man!

Reading a book...

this is his "I'm MAD at you look"

and when asked where is his nose... here is what we got

Sleeping in his big boy bed!

PROOF... this is how he SPILLS whatever is in his sippy... NOT FUN!!!!!!!!

giving Romeo hugs whether he wants them or not

LOVE this smile!!!!!

I bet you this picture just made you smile!

this is his "sad" face... like... Mama I cant BELIEVE you just said NO to me... LOL!!!

and here are some video's...

I don't know why we buy this kid toys!!!!!

and his new trick... snapping his fingers! LOL!!!

My Princess turns 5mths!

2010-06-15T15:00:00.000-07:00

Sophia turned 5mths and I cant believe how fast it's going... wait... do I say that with every update??? LOL!!! Seriously, time is flying by!

Sophia is such a joy to our family. BC is all about his sister and even puts Mama aside sometimes just because Sophia comes in the room or because he "sees" her. She LOVES him too... every time she sees him she's ALL smiles!!!

Sophia is getting to the "fun" stage. She's rolling over both ways now. I must say though, she did decided to take a break on rolling over which freaked Mommy out for a little bit but I guess she decided she didn't want to do it anymore. This break lasted about 3wks and then she was back at it again. Now there is NO keeping her on her tummy! I'm fighting with her all day!

She's also started to blow raspberry's. The amount of spit that comes out of her mouth is incredible... who would have known that she had that much in there! She does it with a big'o smile so there is just no way it's NOT cute!

She has mastered putting her "bobo" (paci) in her mouth without taking her eye or nose out so that's a huge plus! She's working on holding her bottle... she can already hold it for a few minutes and she can hold it tight enough where she can pull it out of her mouth even when I'm holding it but holding it completely on her own... not yet. I'm sure soon she will get there!

We have been practicing sitting unassisted which she can do for a few seconds but I think it's going to take her a little but longer to fully get this one on her own.

She has a good grip on her toys too now. Well actually anything you put in her hands. The only problem is that whatever it is it better be edible because it goes straight to her mouth!

This month we started eating baby food!!!!! I started her on homemade Sweet potatoes and Butternut Squash. So far both were a HUGE success. At first she made more of a mess with it then what she actually ate but she figured it out pretty quick and now eats 3 ice cubes worth!!!!

Mommy is really busy trying to plan her baptism and her 6mth photo shoot. I'm down to the last minute stuff but I'm super excited about them and cant wait for both events!

I cant explain what JOY and PRIDE I have when I look down into her sweet face. I still get tears in my eyes thinking about how truly blessed I am to have this amazing little girl in my life!!!! To be honest... I still cant believe she's MINE.... I don't know what I've done to deserve such a beautiful daughter but I'll take it!!!!

I love you my Princess!!!!!!!!!!! Happy 5mths sweet baby girl!

Now for the fun part... PICS and VIDEO'S...

on tummy time

she just woke up here... check out her morning hair! LOL

my BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS

what a ray of sunshine I have

SERIOUSLY... how can she NOT melt your heart!!!

Pretty girl

her favorite "toys"

LOL.... she likes to bite on the spoon when you feed her and I just HAD to get a picture of it

Mama, I LOVE sweet potatoes!!!!

All smiles and a huge mess

and here are some video's...

check out my sweet baby girl cracking up with Mama... best sound in the world EVER!!!!

eating sweet potatoes for the 1st time

Sophia likes the camera but when she sees me recording her she likes to act like she doesn't know how to do anything... her she is rolling over

BC makes Sophia crack up all the time. I was able to catch them "playing" with each other... can I just say I these two are the LOVE of my life!!!!

Pictures!

2010-05-29T13:37:00.000-07:00

BC is so silly... every time he sees me with my camera he gets right in front and says cheese!

BC playing with Sophia on tummy time

My heart cant take the love between them... it seriously BLOWS me away!

LOVE LOVE LOVE this picture... he's telling her a "secret" and she starts to crack up!!!

BC and his new POTTY!

MOM... no pictures on the potty!!!

He is always making faces... LOL!

My pretty girl

BC put his hat on Sophia

I couldn't live without this little boy!

He LOVES this hat I made him. He has it all stretched out but he puts it on every time he sees it!

Sophia's first time on the saucer

My beautiful princess

holding her head and chest up high

She has made my family COMPLETE!

Update

2010-05-29T11:39:00.000-07:00

Things have been INSANE for us but hopefully soon things will calm down a bit... wait who am I kidding!! I'm already thinking of new ways to expand my "Mommy/SAHM skills" and what new things to do with the kids. ;-)

Lets see...

We had to move so I was on a roll with finding a new place, trying to get things moved and organized before the "big move", then it was time for the "big move". Yea... lets just say that I had a couple of "breakdown" moments where I was SO OVERWHELMED that all I could do was cry. I swear I gave away a ton of stuff, sold another ton of stuff and STILL had a BUNCH of stuff! LOL!!! If you know me at all you know I HATE clutter!!! I don't like to keep things and I like to throw away a lot of stuff so you can totally see where my confusion was when I saw the amount of crap we STILL had! It took me DAYS of JUST organizing and putting stuff away but I'm please to say that I'm finally coming down to the last bit of stuff.

This week BC and Sophia came down with a small cold as well. Yeah... perfect timing right??? On top of his cold BC was also teething really bad. I ended up taking them both to the Pedi's office on Wednesday to get them checked out just in case because he didn't want to eat anything, was pooping a ton, had fever, uncontrollable drool, sneezing, and I wont even go into the amount of cranky-ness!!! Good thing it wasn't something serious.

Both of my babies have gained some weight. BC gained a WHOLE half a pound! :) Those of you know that this is a HUGE accomplishment since I've been trying to get him to eat more so I'm taking every little bit I can. BC is now 25lbs. Sophia as I call her whenever she gets weight is my Princess Meatball... LMAO!!!! (Sorry baby girl but you SHOCK Mommy every time!) She was 15lbs 5oz!!!! Holy moly!!!!! I WILL say... I'm IN LOVE with her and ALL her rolls. I cant tell you how many times a day I kiss her ALL over!!!

Big Boy changes... my heart hurts a little as I talk about this but the part of being proud of him is a lot bigger! On Wednesday BC got a big boy bed!!!! I cant believe it. We got him a twin size bed and got him some rails for it. I went and got him some new sheets (nothing fancy... just a little something to match his side of the room for now) and we set it all up. I haven't been pushing him sleeping in it all night yet since they both are still not feeling 100% yet but once Sophia and BC start feeling back to normal we will work on this. I must say... I put him in it the first night and he slept in it till 4am and then came over to my bed.

I also got BC a POTTY and some UNDERWEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you believe it????? He has been showing signs of being "ready" for a little bit now so I'm thinking I'm going to start REAL soon. Again I'm waiting for him to get better (since he has an upset stomach which means LOTS of NOT normal poop :( ) BUT I have started to put him on it and get him use to it. I got him the one that you can put on the toilet seat... it's Elmo and for now he LOVES it and loves pointing out the "fish, ball, Elmo, and water" on it. Well see what happens when we actually try to potty train him. YIKES.... cant believe it's going to happen soon!!!!!

Oh... I have some exciting news.... well hopefully exciting news... LOL!!! Carlos got me a new camera for Mother's day and I'm planning on taking some photography classes this month. The first one is coming soon June 3rd. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I'll be able to start up a small photography business!!!! I'm super excited about it so with God's help I'll be able to start doing this soon. I'll keep you guys updated!!! :)

That's about it for the updates. I promise I'll be back with some pictures. :)

Video's

2010-05-29T10:57:00.000-07:00

Here is BC showing us some of the things he "knows"... remember sometimes he's just "done"... LOL!!!

Sophia's first time on the jumperoo!

My Silly Monkey - 19mths old

2010-05-14T10:59:00.000-07:00

Today my baby boy turned 19mths. OMG... do you know how close that is to 2?!?!?! Sheesh... why is it that when you carry this baby inside your tummy the days seem to DRAG because all you want to do is hold your baby in your arms but when they are out... it's like a race to the finish line.

I must say it has been MY honor to watch Carlos Manuel grow. He is the light of my life. I cant even tell you how many times in the day he makes me laugh. I can be having the worst day or the best day and he ALWAYS makes it better with that smile of his.

He holds the key to my heart and he totally knows it. You should see the look he gives me when he knows he's in trouble.

Logically in my head... I KNOW they are suppose to grow and learn things but when I see it... I'm in shock! I cant believe how FAST he learns things and how quick he remembers them.

Carlos Manuel... thank you for making my life so WONDERFUL! Happy 19mths sweet boy!

Here is a video of him telling us how old he is. :)

Princess Meatball

2010-05-14T10:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I took the kids to their appt, BC had his 18mth appt and Sophia had her 4mth appt. They both are doing great. My little baby girl who was only 5lbs 11oz when she was born is now 14lbs 15oz!!!!!!!!!!

She is amazing in every way. I cant begin to express to you how she makes me feel when I look into her eyes. I love how she knows who "mama" is already and looks for me when she hears my voice. I watch her sleep a lot... I just sit there and think to myself how truly lucky I am.

I know that time goes by so fast (it did with BC so I know it's bound to happen) and I just try and take mental pictures in my head of her. I can close my eyes and paint her pretty little face for you because I have memorized her face.... every inch of it.

When I hold her close to me on my chest it's like the world just disappears and its only me and her. Time is good to me for those few seconds. Its like our hearts become ONE...

Mother's Day Pictures

2010-05-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

I forgot to add the pictures to my last post so here they are... ;)

Me and My Princess

Seriously... when did she get this big???

She looks soooooo freaking cute with her dress on!

Smiles

Silly Boy

How can you not just want to hug and kiss her????

Mommy and her babies

LOL!!!

Playing ball with his cousins

Love him!

My mom, sister's, and Me

This is what I did all day... NADA... it was just FABULOUS!

Mother's Day

2010-05-09T21:53:00.000-07:00

What a GREAT weekend.... Mother's day is only celebrated once a year but I celebrated it everyday with my babies. I know how blessed I am to have these 2 amazing babies in my life and believe me... I do thank God everyday for them.

Yesterday we spent it with my side of the family and boy did we have fun. We each brought a dish over to my Mom's house, the kids ran like crazy outside, and we (my mom, sisters, and I) got to talk and go through memory boxes my Mom had made us.

Today I got to sleep in BY MYSELF... Carlos took BOTH babies. OMG... I cant remember the last time that EVER happened. He's good about letting me sleep in on the weekends but I usually have the honor of doing it with my Princess since she is a BIG sleepy head like her Mama but today she decided she was going to wake up early and hang out with Daddy. My day started off with Sophia puking INSIDE my mouth, I was feeding my son and he decided that with a spoon full of oatmeal he was going to sneeze and it got ALL over me, and then Sophia peed on me which she hasn't done since she was a newborn.... LMAO!!!! It was all part of their "plan" to show Mommy how much they loved me... LOL!!!

Carlos made me breakfast (a bowl of cereal but it's the thought that counts right?) plus he had fed both the kids and Sophia was passed out. I got a letter from each of my babies and they sealed it with their hand prints. LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We also went by the in laws and hung out a bit over there, came back home and I got in my pj's and literally hung out on the couch ALL DAY... I really do mean ALL DAY!!!! LOL!!! I did nothing... no cleaning, washing, cooking, etc... NADA!!!! It was great. The kids even went down to bed EARLY. Fantastic!

I'm sitting her thinking about today and BOY... do I feel like the lucky Mommy in the world. My babies are such a BLESSING and I am the PROUD owner of them. ;-) Becoming a Mommy took me a long and the journey was a long and hard one but at the end of the day.... I would go through all that pain again in a heartbeat.... they are soooo worth it!

Love you always and forever Carlos and Sophia!

To all the Mommies I know... I hope your day was as GREAT as mine.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Princess turns 4mths old today!

2010-05-06T21:21:00.000-07:00

Today my baby girl turned 4mths old and I was feeling "sad" all day because of it. I cant explain it and the only way you would ever know this feeling is the day you become a Mother.

Sophia has changed so much in just a month. It's amazing to me. She has found her tongue and LOVES to suck on it all day long which in turn makes kisses sounds and Carlos likes to think she is "blowing him kisses". :)

She has also found her hands and legs this month. When she's not sucking on her tongue you can pretty much guarantee she is chewing on her hands. I'm talking about fits fulls in her mouth. She is still working on her legs and like to see them go up and down. It's like she's curious on what "those" things are.

We have brought down the bumbo chair and its her new favorite place to "hang out". She's all about watching and looking at everything that is going on around the house. she can sit on that thing for a good hour and you wont her a peek from her!

This week I had to go through her closet and take out her clothes that were 3-6mths because they were not fitting her anymore. I brought down all the 6-9mth stuff and my heart just hurt to know that she is growing like a weed! I will say though... depending on where the clothes are from she can fit into 6mth stuff and sooooome 3-6mths IF it runs big (can you tell I'm trying to hang on to my little baby LOL).

Today we tried feeding Sophia cereal for the first time with a spoon and she was NOT having it. She just gave me this look like... "Mama... I do not work for my food... where is my leche!!!!!"... LMAO!!! It was so funny to see her face. We'll try again later on... I'm in NO rush! ;-)

Sophia now cracks up out loud ( my favorite), gives LOTS of smiles, coo's and sometimes SCREAMS... she is starting to be soooo much fun. OH... and I MUST share... she rolled over for the first time today. It was like her celebration for herself. I think it was more of a "surprise" roll over but we'll see when she does it again.

The good thing she is still very much a baby in the sense of LOVING to cuddle with Mommy. I'm soaking this part up like you cant believe because I know before long she's going to leave me for her brother... LOL!!!

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Dear Princess,

Today Mommy held you most of the day. I can not be more over joyed that you are growing, getting bigger, and becoming your own little person in the process. You are a ray of sunshine. Your smile is contagious to ANYBODY who sees you. When people stop Mommy in the street to tell her how "beautiful" you are... you cant imagine how my heart over flows with this sense of PRIDE.

While I held you in my arms I noticed that your getting so big. You don't fit as snugged like you once did. I watched you sleep today and I thought about what a WONDERFUL SURPRISE you have been to us. I remember the day I found out you were in my tummy and I will be honest... Mommy FREAKED!!!!! But.... I wouldn't change you for anything in this world. YOU have made us COMPLETE.

I know I tell you a GAZILLION times a day but I must tell you again.... I LOVE YOU SWEET BABY GIRL... (with tears in my eyes)... the love I have/feel for you HURTS my heart but in such a good way.

Sophia... te quiero muchisimo!!!!!!!!!

Love Mommy

A Trip Down Memory Lane...

2010-04-14T13:49:00.000-07:00

Today my baby boy turns 18mths (1.5)...

As I downloaded these pictures I couldn't help but cry... where did my baby go? HOW could it be SO long already????? How can he be SO close to 2 already????

I must say... I am the proudest Mama.... he has been such a joy. I feel honored that God chose me to be his Mama.... my God... what wonderful memories I have of him... from being this tiny baby to this toddler with a mind of his own already.
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To My Baby Boy,

Tears fill up my eyes just thinking about you and how you touched my life. You are Mama's proud and joy. It takes my breath away just thinking about you and trying to put into words what I feel for you is impossible.

Today you woke up extra cuddly. You just randomly come up to me and give me kisses and hugs melting my heart in to pieces every time. I LOVE LOVE how you ALWAYS want to feel me close to you no matter where or what you're doing. I've noticed how even though you are playing or entertained with "your show" you'll look up for a moment just to make sure I'm there with you or in eye's view. It helps my heart not to hurt as I see you grow because I know deep down that no matter how big you get you will ALWAYS be Mama's baby boy.

As I sit here typing this you are wiping the tears off my cheeks and giving me this big cheese smile like saying... "Mama, don't worry... everything is going to be ok". How lucky am I to have you? Not one day goes by that I don't thank God for giving me you.

Baby, Mommy loves you so much. I will always remember what you did for me... You made me a Mama... that's the BEST gift you could have ever given me. You still have no idea how you have touched my life and how much you have changed it for the better.

You do drive me crazy sometimes but I wouldn't trade you in for nothing in the world. Thank you for the million times a day you make me smile and laugh. Thank you for always just "knowing" when Mama can use a hug and/or a kiss. Thank you for showing Mama the BEST love that could ever exist!!!!

Happy 18mths Baby Boy!!!

Love, Mama
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Mommy had just gotten her IV and was sooo nervous but excited to meet you

Sleeping with Daddy

I had just finished bf'ing you for the very first time here and laid you on my chest

Mommy LOVES this picture of you

we had just gotten home from the hospital

You at 3mths.....

6mths...

9mths...

On you actual birthday- 10/14/09... to think I thought you were sooo BIG here

and today... 4/14/10

April Madness

2010-04-11T13:30:00.000-07:00

April has been a busy month for us so far.... sorry I haven't posted anything new in a while but I've been enjoying my babies/family as much as I can! :)

So here are a few updates and get ready for a picture OVERLOAD... ;-)

Sophia

Sophia turned 3mths on the 6th and man is she growing!!!!! She's wearing 3-6mth clothing and in size 2 diapers. Every time I carry her I feel like I'm holding a 6mth old!! She has a LOT of fat rolls but she is VERY sturdy and holds her own.

She coos all the time now and if you talk to her she'll try and talk back. She found her tongue the other day and LOVES to suck on it which makes kissing noises so I like to think she's "throwing" me kisses! LOL!!! She can hold her head up like a pro and is kicking like a manic!

We introduced cereal in her milk the other day and she LOVES it. I'm only giving her a tiny tiny bit in her milk and only one bottle a day to get her tummy use to it so we she turns 4mths we'll spoon feed it to her. I started BC off a little early too and he did fine.

She LOVES to sleep and Mama loves that she loves to sleep! I have her on BC's same schedule so they take their afternoon nap together and it's pure bliss!

Carlos Manuel

This kid is SOOOOOO MUCH FUN!!!! Man... playtime is the best with him. We've started to bring Sophia into playtime and she thinks her brother is the most funniest person in the world. She looks for him all the time and he is ALWAYS giving her LOADS of LOVE.

This month I started to work with him and his weight. He hasn't gained much since he was getting sick on and off in the beginning of the month so I found a "menu calendar" online and we've been working with that. In the beginning I wasn't too happy because a lot of food was getting thrown away but I think he's starting to get use to it. He doesn't eat everything on his plate but he tries it and sometimes he surprises me and DOES eat everything. So I'll weight him at the end of this month and see what it tells me.

Okay... no more "talking" for now... here is the fun part... LOTS and LOTS of pictures!

So BC has an attitude and ROLLS his EYES.... YUP... he's MY son.... LOL!!!! This is the "attitude" look he gives me when I tell him he cant have something he wants along with saying "whaaaaaat" to me.... (LMAO... I'm totally cracking up just looking at this picture)

Then as I give HIM "the look" like BOOOOY.... he changes it up real quick and gives me this look.... he totally knows how to "work" Mama...

We got invited to Arianna's 1st birthday and he had SO MUCH FUN... Thank you for inviting us Wally and Sandra....

Princess Sophia slept the entire time... we were there for HOURS and not one peep from her...

BC playing in the bounce house

He found the box of candy on the table...

getting his face painted for the 1st time!

Monnnster!!!!!!!!!! (he looks so cute!)

Mommy, BC, and the Birthday Girl Arianna

Sophia ready to go shopping with Mama

her hair is growing!!!! Mama cant wait!

Sophia playing on her play mat that we got her as her Easter present (Mama was a total slacker and didn't do Easter basket's this year... but we got them both a little gift and I'll be back on track next year.... promise!)

BC checking in on his sister

Sophia you need to grab these and play with him.... Don't you know how to play?

For Easter we went to my sister's house and celebrated both Easter and my nephew's birthday. Here are the toddlers before going on their Easter Egg Hunt...

From left to right: My sister Loriane with Valentina, Carlos and I, My sister Frances and Angel (the birthday boy) also 4mths pregnant, and my sister's SIL with her daughter

So at playtime I get the kids together and we play with all of BC toys and Sophia will play with her mat. I usually take some pictures or record them and I was able to capture my SWEET SWEET boy showing his sister some love.... my heart melts into a MILLION pieces when I see them together and to see how each of their faces LIGHTS up when they see one another.

Look at Sophia's face.... she LOVES him to pieces!!!

Silly boy at playtime

okay I have NO IDEA why this picture downloaded this way because it was completely right when I hit download.... but it's to cute not to share

BC and Sophia's 1st bath together.... that's his bath when he was a baby... I got one for Sophia but is came broken and I'm waiting for a replacement in the mail.

She LOVES LOVES taking a bath

I know this picture came out messed up but again... he looks so cute not to share.... Here is BC with his Easter present.... he got his own little chair/pull out

sharing his new chair with Sophia

here is BC trying to "look" at his sister in the crib.... I can totally see him finding a way to climb in there one day

Today we had a fun family day outside. Here are some pics...

Her shirt says it ALL....

BC playing with bubbles

getting some sun

she is SOOOOOO freaking ADORABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here is a picture of the hat I made BC

kisses for Sophia

look at her belly!!!!!

close up

playing with the water... don't worry Daddy is right behind him

LOVE him to death!

splashy splashy

look at the bird Mama

eating a Starburst

and my beautiful princess

Here is a video of BC showing his sister some loving. Check out Sophia's BIG SMILE when she notices him on her.

Just because she's cute...

2010-03-28T22:33:00.000-07:00

I swear everyday that passes by she grows a TON!!!! I keep telling Carlos... "this is not fair... look how big she is ALREADY"... LOL!!! She is ALL Princess though.... if she's awake and your not looking/playing/talking to her... and it's NOT about her... she WILL make it about her!!!

She is doing LOTS of smiling and cooing these days. She can lift her head nice and high for a few seconds and if you let her hold your fingers in her hands she tries to pull her body up. I actually didn't know that one till the other day when I was playing with her and she did it a couple of times right after the other and literally FREAKED out that my baby could do "that" already.

She's wearing 3 to 6mths clothing already and LOVES playtime. She is a very calm, cool, and collected baby who LOVES to play dress up already. I SWEAR to you she already knows when I'm dressing her up and putting a bow in her hair. She smiles super big when I'm showing her off to anybody who's around... its like she saying... "Yeah that's right... look how cute I am"... BOY is Carlos in trouble! ;-)

Check out how beautiful my Princess is...

Look at her fat arms

wide awake and ready to play

her soft baby look... this is the one that gets Daddy ALL the time!

she's soooo big and has fat rolls everywhere... I just LOVE her!!!

loving tummy time

you know tummy time is a LOT of hard work... PASSED out!

My Princess Throne

2010-03-28T21:34:00.000-07:00

For MONTHS I've been working on Sophia's room and I finally finished it this weekend!!! I couldn't believe it when it was finally done. I couldn't even describe to you how PROUD I am of this room. Some pieces where a BIG pain in the butt but it was soooo worth it. I love the fact that I actually MADE or created every single piece in this room. I cant wait till Sophia is old enough for me to "show" her what I did for her.

I was going for a very simple but classic shabby chic look with a mix of Princess of course! :)

Here you go....

The view when your going to enter her room... you can really get a good look at what the wall color is... it's called "pink blush"... very soft pink

Here is the mobile I made her

with her wall letters

the other wall... we got this dresser and mirror on Criagslist for 40 bucks!!! It was a nasty yellow color. Sophia's Godfather made it look like new! Thanks Danny for all your help!

Her closet with all her clothes. I cant take credit for it though... I swear I probably bought her like 3 outfits and got some for her baby shower... but most of them were given to me by Dana and Erin... Ladies... seriously... THANK YOU!!!!!!!!

Some of Sophia's shoes... hey... what can I say... she HAS to have SHOES!!!!

Her bunny with her heartbeat and her doll that her Aunt gave her... her name is Sophia :)

I made these headband holders.... I needed to display her headbands so I figured why not!

The rocking chair and table. This rocking chair took me FOREVER to recover!!

After her bumper was done I ended up replacing the "ties" with this ribbon... I ended up liking this much better then what I had before... see why it took me forever to finish this room?!?!?

up close shot of her letters... I had painted the trim around them to add the gold

This blank was made by my WONDERFUL Grandma for Sophia. I'm so happy that Sophia has one as part of her keepsake collection

She also made her this dress

Here is the chandelier that took me forever to find

close up of her bumper

and the crib skirt

with the lights on

her mobile

I painted the trim pink and then added glitter

The gold drapes I made for her room

and here are the headband holders so you can see them better

17mths

2010-03-28T20:59:00.000-07:00

BC hit 17mths on the 14th and time is just flying by. He is a VERY BUSY little man that makes Carlos and I crack up EVERYDAY!!!! The things he does sometimes... seriously... I have no idea how he even knows how to do or say them.

Carlos and I were looking back at pictures and video's of him when he was smaller and I swear it was shocking that at one point he was this "little baby". It seems sooooo long ago. I cant begin to tell you how happy I am that I recorded so much, have so many pictures, and have this blog for him to look back on one day... actually even for me to look back on.

I LOVE this kid... have I said that before???? I mean I REALLY REALLY LOVE this kid. He made me a Mommy... :-)

As big as he is and as much as he knows... tonight... my heart is nice and warm. I put my son down to sleep by slowing dancing with him and singing him songs. He fell right to sleep with his head on my shoulder... his warm body on mine... and his heart beating right next to mine. It was PERFECT!!!! It was a reminder that no matter how much he grows... he'll ALWAYS be my sweet baby boy!

BC and his "silly hat".

He's swinging that thing in FULL speed!

BC got Romeo on the stairs... he's cracking up while Romeo is so scared!!!!

and then BC tries to kick him off... my poor dog!

But then he gives me THESE sweet looks... how can he even get in trouble... look how freaking cute he is!!!

he LOVES being outside!

check out the belly... LOL!!!

Ready for the baseball game!!!!

LOVE his profile!

and then there is this...

what Mama???

Here are some video's...

My son LOVES LOVES Barney. Look how excited he gets when he hears the theme song...

Here he is on the swing... watch how fast he's over the "pain"... LOL!!!

Random Cuteness!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-14T20:23:00.000-07:00

He loves playing in her chair... I really need to get him one so he's not in hers all the time

Look at me.. I'm a "baby".

Handsome boy

Adorable!!!!

I'm watching you!!!!

We were playing... I was saying "Sophia" and she was going crazy looking for me... when she finally "found" me... this was the look she gave me! YUP... she melts my heart!!!

Psshh... this tummy time is for baby's... I can do this!

See... I can hold my head up nice and high... anything else Mom?

Okay seriously Mom... I'm DONE!!!!

How freaking cute is she?!?!?! She's getting so big... :(

Sophia gets her ear's pierced!!!

2010-03-14T19:41:00.000-07:00

Today we took my sweet girl to the mall to get her ear's pierced. I swear all day my stomach was in knots just thinking about it but I knew that getting it done now verses when she's older would be much better and a lot more painless plus she wont remember it.

She did sooooooo well with it. She was sleeping when I got there and when they did her first ear she woke up and cried for a few seconds. I think she hated more being held then getting the piercing itself. I'm sooo proud of my baby girl!!!! We got her some sky blue studs to match her beautiful eyes. : ) Her earrings look sooo cute on her... see for yourself!!!! ; )

Mommy holding Sophia

They made me turn her over and place her on my lap

MOM... why are you holding my face!!!!

ALL DONE!!!!

I don't know what just happened but I'm so happy my Mommy is holding me

Here is a close up!!!

Princess Sophia 2mth old and 2mth Appt

2010-03-12T09:25:00.000-08:00

My baby girl turned 2mths old already. I took her to her appt yesterday and boy was my stomach in knots because of the shots I knew she had to get.

Sophia Arelis stats: 10lbs 7oz 22inches long

I'm such a proud Mama when they told me her weight. I just cant believe that my once small tiny baby that fit into preemie clothes is now in size 3mth clothing and is 10lbs and more already!!!! She's ALL about her fat rolls I tell you. You don't understand how many times a day I attack those thighs of hers!

As you all know I've started Sophia off on formula and she's been doing FANTASTIC with it. No problems so far! She's drinking anywhere from 5 to 6oz right now.

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To My Little Princess,

Oh... Sophia, Mommy doesn't even know where to start. When I look into those beautiful eyes of yours I can feel my heart skip a beat. You are such a beautiful little girl. You know when Mommy found out you were coming (boy was that a surprise) I knew I could love another baby but I couldn't ever imagine that I would love you the way I do. My love for you is pure and soft just like you.

Many times you'll find me thanking God to have giving me such an amazing little girl. I don't know what I ever did to deserve you and your brother but I must have done something right because you guys are PERFECT!

I'm soaking in every minute of this "baby stage" I have with you cause I know in no time you will be just as big as your brother. I love the way you look for me. When you hear me calling your name and how when you finally find me you give Mommy this big o'smile. OMG... you don't understand how much you take my breath away.

I've always dreamed of having a daughter so we could do all that "girlie" stuff together but seriously this is just SO MUCH better. Mommy is having the BEST time decorating your room and I cant wait till your older so I can show you all the stuff I made for you. You are my inspiration.

Mommy cant promise you the world (you better believe I'll do everything I can to bring you close to it) but I CAN promise you a life full of unconditional LOVE, HUGS, and KISSES!!!!

My Princess Sophia... Mommy LOVES you to pieces... as high as the sky and as deep as the ocean!!!!

Love, Mommy

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Picture time!!!

Look at those cheeks... seriously... how can you just NOT attack her with kisses?!?!?!

My poor baby... she's never going to get a good nights rest... until her brother moves out! LOL!!!!

all dressed up!!!!

The most sweetest, precious, adorable, beautiful little girl EVER!!!!

first time she EVER slept on her tummy

all excited to go out

my poor baby's thighs... :-(

16mth Appt

2010-03-12T09:02:00.000-08:00

I've already done a 16mth update on my little man but I wanted to update everyone on his appt we had yesterday and of course post some new pics and video.

BC stats: 24lbs 32inches long

BC has been getting colds on and off for about 2 months now so I was concerned about his weight and brought it up to the Pedi yesterday. I explain to her that he hasn't gained any weight and has become a PICKY eater all of a sudden.

She explained to me that at this stage it's normal for them to become picky and that his no weight gain can be a source of two factors... one: the fact that he was sick for a while and two: teething. We decided to start him on a multi-vitamin so that should help me get what he's not getting from food. My poor baby got 2 shots also... :-(

BC got a clean bill of health and needs to go back in 2 months for some more shots and his 18mth check up (boy I'm I ready for these shots to be over with!).

Here he is painting for the first time!

this is his "hide out"... my son have this "thing" for raw rice... you see the clear/white bin on the floor... that's where I keep my rice at and I find him ALL the time in the pantry getting into it.

BC showing Romeo some love...

my little monster

He's always so happy... even when he's doing "bad" stuff!!!

Sorry this video is dark but we couldn't let BC know he was being recorded... Poor Romeo.. he was sleeping nice and peacefully and BC NEEDS to try and wake him up... he even tries to carry him... LOL!!!! Check out BC face when he realizes that we catch him on camera... STINKER!

My Decision...

2010-03-05T20:11:00.000-08:00

This decision has been on my mind for quite some time now. I thought of every single possibility and every single outcome. Even different paths that I might be able to take but at the end of the day it all came down to the same answer...

I cant exclusively breastfeed my daughter anymore.

Just thinking about it and saying it out loud hurts still. It makes me mad too because in the beginning even before Sophia got here I told myself that I wouldn't put myself through the same emotions I did when the whole breastfeeding didn't go good with BC. I told myself that I was just going to go with the flow and IF I had to stop or it didn't work out I would walk away with my head held high.... which... I am... but it's still SO SAD.

Now let me just say right now that I WILL STILL continue to breastfeed her just NOT exclusively. Right now my game plan is to give her two formula bottles a day... one at the 10:30am feeding and another at the 7:30pm feeding.

The reason.... I need to be fair Mommy to BOTH of my children. Let me explain...

BC is such a WONDERFUL brother and doesn't show any signs of "resentment" towards Sophia at all but I can tell a difference...

I've been breastfeeding Sophia since I brought her home from the hospital and sometimes that requires her being attached to my boob ALL DAY LONG. There has been times when I'm feeding her that BC just might need a hug or reaches out his little hands for me to "carry him" and I cant... I have to tell him that "as soon as Mommy's done feeding Sophia I'll take him".... and my heart just breaks... it's like he just wants to cuddle with Mommy and I cant.

He's a smart little boy... other times when I tell him to "give me a few minutes cause Sophia is almost done eating" and he still needs to feel me close... you know what he does... he'll get behind me (since it's the only spot available) and put his little arms around my neck and hug me... I cant tell you how many times I've latched Sophia off to grab him and just hug him for that second that he needs it.

Other times he'll just sit right next to me and lay his head on my arm just to feel Mommy close to him. THIS is the MAIN reason why.

Then I have the times when I am feeding her that I feel like all I do all day long is tell BC "No, you cant play with that", "Please get out of there", "Carlos Manuel that's ca-ca", "Carlos Manuel, what did Mommy say", etc... I think you get the point.... and it's NOT even HIS fault. He's a growing toddler and a VERY curious one at that so these things are NORMAL for him to want to do... or touch but I feel like MOST of the day this is what he hears and I don't like it.

I'm also always having to get up or stop Sophia from eating because I need to get him "off the stairs", "out of the toilet", "stopping him from throwing stuff away", "getting him off from climbing things", etc... That a feeding that should have taken me 10 minutes now took me an hour to do and poor Sophia is crying cause she just wants to eat.

So... I need to be a better Mommy to and for BOTH of them.

I sat down with myself and asked myself "why" I was sooooo driven to breastfed... and honestly... besides the fact that I LOVE the bond and I LOVE doing it... I couldn't come up with a really good answer... I'm talking about a good answer like "life or death" kind cause we all know that they say breast milk is the BEST for a child... which it is... but honestly Sophia will be just as healthy if she was formula-feed... BC was and he's doing FANTASTIC!!!

I needed to push myself aside and think about my babies. I need to have the help. I finally sat down and discussed it with Carlos and told him that I will be doing both. This way... when he's home he'll get a chance to feed her too. He'll be able to bond with her, get that alone one on one time, and I'll be able to spend more time with my son. With the extra time I'll be able to give him extra hugs, kisses, and play time. Mommy would be more available to him. I wont be so "stressed or tired" and would actually have some more time for MYSELF too (God knows I can use it).

If your asking or questioning the reason why I just don't pump those two feedings (or just pump for that matter)... here is my answer... the whole point is to have more time with my son, not sitting down pumping.

Being a Mother is not about being a PERFECT Mom but if you can see ways and things you can do to make ALL your children happy... do it cause at the end of the day that's ALL that matters.

Yes... I'm completely sad about it... and I can still cry when I think about it but I'll be a better Mom to both my babies with taking this step. Sophia will still have her "mama's milk" and BC will get to have his "mama" more.

My heart just smiles at the thought.

Valentine's Day

2010-02-15T11:59:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was Valentine's Day and we actually celebrated it on Saturday... well not really "celebrated it"... just made dinner and dessert.

We don't really "buy" each other anything either for it... nor do we go out to eat cause the restaurants are always SOOOO PACKED!!! It was nice just us at home. :)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway here are some pics...

My lasagna... Yummy!!!!!!!

BIG chocolate chip cookie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me explain.... yesterday morning while I was feeding Sophia I told my wonderful husband more then 3 times to get up cause BC was awake and he needed to watch him... like always... my fabulous husband didn't listen to me and guess what happened... BC was playing with some diapers on the floor when he didn't realize he was pretty close to the edge of my bed... he lean down to pick some up from the floor and BANGED his head with the corner of my bed and cut right through his skin, right between the eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!... FABULOUS HUH?????

His cut... which doesn't look bad after I cleaned up the blood... :-/

Here's my little man all dressed up with his Daddy's hat

and my Princess....

Oh... and my husband broke my camera yesterday... well he cracked the screen to it so I'm screwed taking pictures without being able to see what I'm taking for now... :( Good thing is... I get a new one!!!!! :-)

16mth Update

2010-02-15T11:16:00.000-08:00

Is there another word for HANDFUL????? ;-) My son is truly a BOY!!!! I wouldn't trade my little man for nothing in the world but LORD JESUS does he give me a run for my money!!!!

He's in that stage where he wants to do EVERYTHING and touch EVERYTHING. He's not a pain in the butt per se... he just likes to stand, climb, grab, see, touch... everything so I ALWAYS have one eye on him at ALL times. But...

He's totally at the fun stage too. I love when it's play time for us... hearing him crack up... best sound ever!!!!

Right now he's not a happy camper because he's teething but besides that... he's all smiles.

His favorites are:

watching Blue's Clues
eating Pringles (he cant eat these for breakfast, lunch and dinner if I let him)
DANCE... OMG... he dances to ANYTHING and he totally has rhythm
his Mama ;-)
shaking your hand while you say (Hello Sir, it's nice to meet you)
loves to "read" books
play hide and seek
make you run after him
and play follow the leader

He's not very interested in talking too much right now. He does say:

Mama (right now everybody is "Mama")
Dadda
Papa
Hi Ti-ti-a (Sophia)
Hi Dad
Dog
Stop (which he tells me ALL the time)
Hi
Gracias (thank you in Spanish... and only when he wants too)

He knows where his:

Nose
Head
Pepa (belly)
Tongue
Toes

I think he's pretty smart for a 16mth old! Maybe a little too smart for his age... ;-) Enjoy the pics...

See Mama... I'm such a good boy... I have no idea what your talking about...

look all I do is sit on the couch and playstation... don't worry Daddy I wont break this remote too ;)

blurry but he's so darn cute!

eating pretzels

okay so if I haven't stressed enough about what a BOY he is... please see the following pictures... I have PROOF!!!!

Riding his 4 wheeler BACKWARDS and actually hitting the button so it can move!!!

Mama look at what I can do.... (I wont go into details about how many times I've told him he can hurt himself or how many times he's made me JUMP off the couch thinking he was going to fall)

leaning back while riding... like its going "super fast" LOL!!!!

and this is the face I have to say "No" too.... can you see my dilemma???

and if that wasn't enough "proof" for you... here goes some more...

Mama look I figured out another way to ride my turtle!!!

do you see the seat??? When he got off it we noticed he had his elephant in there and was trying to add a ball so he could sit on top of his toys with the seat up!!!

his football player wanted to swing on the swing

Princess Sophia 1mth told

2010-02-15T10:33:00.000-08:00

It's so hard to believe that my baby girl is already a month old. I always knew time went by way to fast but these days it seems to be going at the speed of light!!!

I can talk to you for DAYS on end about my precious baby girl.... I'm so IN LOVE with her!!! I find myself most of the time just staring at her and taking memory pictures because I know that before I know it she's going to be as big as her brother!

Sophia is ALL about being a GIRL!!! She's very soft and delicate. She HATES being cold and loves to be held really close to your body. But don't get me wrong... she makes Daddy really proud with her loud burps and DON'T piss her off... cause boy... you better watch out... she's got Mommy's temper.

She's a very strong little girl too and totally has a mind of her own. She's been lifting her head nice and high since she was a few days old. I can tell already that as she gets older she's gonna want to do things RIGHT with the first try.

She's a FABULOUS sleeper. Since she turned 3wks old she's been on 4 to 5hrs of sleep at night but during the day she wont miss a feeding which honestly I'll take it any day over being up all night. She doesn't like being swaddled which her brother LOVED... she prefers to be nice and warm instead... I swear she sleeps with like 3 blankets!

I took her to her 1mth appt and my baby girl went from 5lbs 11oz (birth weight) to 8lbs!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously!!!!!!!!! I was so proud of her and I just LOVE her fat rolls!!! Breastfeeding is going good too (even though we've had our share of bumps on the road) I'm keeping my fingers crossed that those are over with now.

She's beginning to stay awake a lot more during the day now. You should see the way she "looks" at her brother... LOL... I sometime wish I could read her mind cause I imagine her saying... "what the HECK are you doing bro?!?!?!"... LOL!!!!

Daddy is still giving her her list of "No's"... lately I've heard... "you cant wear make up until your in college"... "you can go to the club when your brother takes you only"... and my favorite... "your gonna be home schooled"... LMAO!!! If he ONLY knew!!!!! But even with his list of "No's" he comes home from work and the first thing he does after grabbing BC is looks for "Little Grey" (which BC proudly takes him to where ever she's at) and checks in on her. His opening line to her is "Hello Beautiful". <3

BC still LOVES his sister too. He's going to be (IS) such a WONDERFUL big brother to her. I just feel bad for her when she tries to bring a boyfriend home... oh lord... it's not going to be pretty!!! BC does try to "play" with her so he'll sometimes "throw" a toy or two at her and wonders why she doesn't "catch" it. Or I've caught him trying to feed her pringles... LMAO!!!! What?!?! He's just sharing!!!

I'm already dreaming about her getting older like when we can play "tea party" together, when her hair is long enough to put pigtails in it, playing dress up with her... etc...

I'll let you soak in ALL the cuteness of her now... ;-)

Look how chunky she has gotten!!!!

okay seriously... check out the cheeks!!!

passed out with Daddy

BC playing with Sophia on the swing

Terrible 15mths - Act 1

2010-01-27T10:49:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we took BC to the Pedi's office and while we were there "it" happened... BC was walking around the office but he kept going to the doors which Carlos told him "No" and went to grab him. I was sitting with Sophia in the seat watching them and I swear to you... all of a sudden things starting going in slow motion... BC turn into one of "those" kids... I'm talking about the kids that decided their legs are "no longer going to work" so they hang by the arm when you grab them... YUP... one of those...

I just sat there in disbelief. Now... I KNOW... he was going to do it and that it was just a matter of time... but I at least thought I had a few more months before he "tried" that. Seriously... this kid has been on a role with giving us "sneak peeks" of what's to come once he hits his "terrible 2's".

As much as I DON'T believe in "beatings" I DO believe in spanking and punishment. I'm NOT saying that my children will get a spanking ALL the time and for every little thing they do BUT when they deserve it... you better believe they will get one.

This can be a very "touchy" subject since many mom's have different opinions on discipline which is completely fine and I totally understand that and to each it's own... BUT those who ARE Moms cant tell me that there wasn't at least one time where you have thought to yourself... OMG... this kid needs a spanking!!! Cause if you do... then your LYING!!!!

I sat there on that chair and the "thought" pass through my head BUT I didn't do it. I just know that for the first time in my life I gave my son the "look". If your Hispanic... believe me you KNOW the LOOK and if your a mom... you HAVE given the look or WILL give the LOOK at point in your life.

BC saw the look... though it didn't phase him much since he really cant "understand" the look just yet but he will and it seems like REAL SOON!

I believe in explaining things to your children which I do. I just don't tell BC "No"... I always explain to him why... for example... "Carlos Manuel, I'm sorry but you cant eat food from the trash... it will give you a tummy ache" (actual conversation I've had with my son) and I will continue to explain things to him expect for when he's in the stage of asking "why" a gazillion times and then at that point I WILL be using the famous "because I said so" (even though I hated it when I was growing up) because let's face it... after the hump time of being asked the same question I restore the right to pull out any Mommy weapons I have.

My question is this... well not question... but "rant"... let's call it... have you ever gone to Publix, Target, Walmart, etc... and seen those "bad ass kids" that throw themselves on the floor screaming their guts out because they want something and their Mommy has obviously has told them NO so they cause this huge scene at the store because they know that their poor mama is just going to give in and buy them what they want just to make them stop... yeah... well... when I walk by them I swear I wanna BEAT THEM!!!!! WTF???? What goes through YOUR head???

I swear to you... when I was little... I wouldn't DARE to even attempt to throw a fit because I just knew... you know what.... the thought NEVER even crossed my mind... I refuse to let it cause MY mama... she didn't play. What happened to that fear kids use to have? I feared my mom and if I'm being honest... I think that's what wrong with a lot of teenagers these days... they don't fear their parents and they have lost all sorts of respect.

You know that line you use to through to your mom when you were little "I'm running away"... LOL... My mom would say... "let me help you pack" or "go right ahead but your not taking nothing from here cause I bought all this stuff". I "run away" once when I was little... I was so scared to "actually" run away that I put on my clothes went to the front door... opened it, closed it, and went to hide in the closet STILL IN MY HOUSE!!! LOL!!! It was so funny looking back... I actually left the door crack a little because I wanted to see everyone go "crazy looking for me"... you know what I got... after about 10 minutes my mom tells my older sister Loraine "you might want to find your sister" SERIOUSLY... I "just" run away and nobody even flinched!!!! I'm sure it was due to the fact that EVERYONE knew I was CHICKEN... so my sister came out of the room that night, walked in the hall, saw me in the closet, and said "I'll go find her later" and went right back to bed!!!! Talk about the worst "run away" story EVER!!!! LMAO!!!!

So... I'm faced with this dilemma... my son has turned into one of "those" kids. I will "walk" away from him when he does it cause honestly I would probably need to take a few moments and breath but please pray that the "I've fallen and cant get up" act fades quickly... if not... mama's gonna need a LOT of alcohol!!!!!

Side note... I TRUST that everyone who reads my blog knows me and knows the fact that I LOVE my son DEARLY. That I wouldn't "beat" him as much as the thought might cross my mind at times and if you think I'm a HORRIBLE Mommy for even mentioning "spanking" or "punishment" cause "how dare I"... please call me ASAP because I'm gonna have to show you my skills.

Breastfeeding

2010-01-24T07:36:00.000-08:00

During my pregnancy with Sophia... I tried to avoid this word at every cost. My experience with BC was... let's just say "not a good one". I went through more pain with bf'ing then labor!!!! To some it up I had over pumped, cracked bloody nipples, engorgement, mastsis, etc... and it was rough. BC ended up getting only breast milk until he was 3mths old but from a bottle. I had gotten really upset at myself for "not really knowing" what I was doing, cried lots of tears, and told myself I was a "failure" since I couldn't provide my son with the "best" milk out there for him. It was a dark moment in my life.

This time around I told myself and all of those who asked... "I'm going to try it... if it works then it works... if it doesn't then it doesn't". I didn't want to set a goal or set myself up for failure again. I wasn't sure how it was going to go plus I knew I wasn't going to get pregnant again for a long time so I want to enjoy every bit of Sophia no matter what happened.

Well... this time around... things are going GREAT!!!! Sophia has been only breastfed and it feels sooo good. So far I'm able to do it and I'm so happy. Sophia latchs on like a pro and we make a great team. I have ran into SO MANY questions and concerns along the way and you can ask my closest friends cause I've text them like crazy trying to "figure things out" since I never made it this far with BC but with their help... I've been able to continue bf'ing her. It's actually not so bad... after you pass the engorgement stage which OMG... hurts like nobody's business... your boobs actually get a routine down. I don't think I've ever been so proud of my boobs before! ;-)

The pump.... I swear every time I hear or say that word I can hear the Jaws song playing in the background... you know the one where he's about to eat somebody... YUP... I'm terrified of that darn pump. After what I went through last time, you cant blame me. My plan is...to stay away for as long as I can. I haven't pumped once so far. I know I need to start a supply for her in the freezer and believe me the thought is in the back of my mind ALL the time but I'm just not sure when or how I'll do it. I know I'm gonna need a break or have to go out and leave her with her Daddy but right now I figure... I'll handle that when the time comes.

I'm not going to say that I will breastfeed Sophia until forever because honestly when your child can come to you and whip out your boob to eat... then people get them OFF the boob! Seriously... not cute!!!! Or I really don't know how it's going to go tomorrow... for now... I'm just happy with what I've been able to do so far and will continue to be grateful day by day with her.

Let me go ahead and state this... I have no problem with formula feeding either. BC was formula fed and he turns out more then GREAT!!! Sophia has gotten formula too (the first day she was born) and she did great on it too. It's such a personal choice and which ever way you decide on going... go for it. Don't let anybody convince you that one is better then the other cause at the end of the day... all that matters is that your baby is happy and healthy.

Its funny though... with BC I got the "oh... your NOT bf'ing him?" and now with Sophia I get the "oh... your ONLY bf'ing her?"... LOL!!!! People who went through labor and had to do the pushing????? Me... so I get to decide!!!

Side note... I need to thank my breastfeeding posse for helping me answer all my questions and for helping me not feel like a loser... LOL!!! Leslie, Nikki, Stephanie, and Meli... thank you for all the help you have given me... I really really appreciated it!!!! Love you ladies!!!!

Sick Household

2010-01-23T20:12:00.001-08:00

These past few days have being... "ROUGH". I'll admit it. When I had BC I always heard of "those moments" where a Mom has a break down and just cant handle things or things get to rough or hard for her. Well... I NEVER had one with him. Being a Mom came easy to me. Not sure if it had to do with the fact that I was ALWAYS around babies/kids (having 3 other sister's with kids, I had my share of "practice") so it was a breeze to get use to him and the schedule.

This time around... OMG... being honest again... it's a HUGE adjustment. Okay let me explain... the first few days were an adjustment but it was more of an adjustment trying to figure out a schedule or some type of way of making sure I divided my time equally. I got that under control... BUT THEN... BC got sick and his bottom molars are KILLING him.

BC was whiny and wanted to be held ALL DAY LONG. I felt so bad for him because it wasn't his fault... all he knew was that he was in pain and he just wanted Mommy to make things feel better... but Mommy had to feed his sister who at the same time decided she wanted to go through a growth spur so now she was eating every 2hrs or even closer to that. Lord.... I had a meltdown.

It's hard when your husband NEEDS to go to work... I felt like a single mom and ALONE.

I had to take BC to the doctors because he started to get fever's above the average "just molars" and with Sophia being so little I just cant afford for her to get sick. BC got put on meds and I was FREAKING out trying to figure out how or what I could do in order for her NOT to get sick too. First day went by and we were good... the next day... still good... that night... Sophia had (still has) a stuffy nose.

I spent that WHOLE night up every 30mins sucking out her boogers just because I didn't want them to get to much for her little nose and I was just worried about her. So far... she only has a stuffy nose and I'm praying to all the God's above to please keep it this way. I'm feeding her all the time to see if breast milk will help me fight any cold that possibly might be trying to get to her.

Honestly.... Sophia getting sick pushed me to the deep end. I felt like such a failure... a HORRIBLE Mommy for letting my baby girl get sick. Some people just don't understand WHY I could feel this way... but when your a Mom... your babies mean the WORLD to you and seeing them sick in any shape or form just breaks your heart. You want to do everything you can to help them feel better ASAP and when it doesn't happen with the snap of your fingers... if your like me... you start to panic which leads into a TOTAL MELTDOWN.

I must say... don't call the loony bin on me just yet... I'm in a better place... :) I was able to gather my composer after a day or feeling like scum and told myself... that these things WILL happen. From here on out... there will be no just "one" baby getting sick on me... If one gets it... it's BOUND to spread to us and possibly be passed back and forth for a while. So for any Mommy out there like me (who will have two under two)... just know... you WILL have sick babies at one point of another... just know... it's "okay".

BC is still not 100% and Sophia isn't either... Carlos and I are both feeling like we're gonna get sick too... but I must say... I'm counting my blessings that it's only a cold and they will get better. I might have a few bald spots from trying to please my toddler and feeding my newborn but... this too shall pass.

Moral of the story... even when things are going great... know that things like this might happen and if they do... there IS a light at the end of the tunnel and don't try to be super Mom. Remember the first rule... if the kids are fed and happy... then your GOLDEN... everything will get done when it gets done. Oh... and if your husband DARES to say anything to you about anything other then the kids... you have my permission to punch him in the face!!!! Carlos has been good so far... he has let the line "I'm so tired" slip out here and there.... but don't worry... I give him the one raise eyebrow look and say... "YOUR so tired"... and he rephrases his statement. ;-)

Here's picture of my baby girl at 2wks old... weighing in at 7lbs 2oz alrady!!!!!

Getting out the house

2010-01-23T19:56:00.000-08:00

Last week I got out the house with both kids all by myself and I was actually pride of myself. I know getting ready and trying to get a toddler ready is a process in itself... but adding a newborn to the mix... holy Jesus!!!! From here on out if we ever have any events to go to I'm gonna have to start getting ready HOURS before we actually need to leave the house cause it sure is a TASK!!!

I needed to get out of the house and the days are actually getting warmer where its actually possible so I figured... why not?

It felt great. I got the kids in the double stroller and away we went. I walked around the neighborhood and then I decided to grab some lunch with them so we walked to the community restaurant. He was so much fun. BC had a blast being able to "watch" his sister and Sophia... basically slept the entire time... Hello people... she NEEDS her beauty sleep! ;)

My beautiful Princess

my silly monkey

Mom can we get this show on the road?!?!? (loving my double stroller by the way... thank you my wonderful crappers!!!!!)

HAHA!!!! I'm SO the boss of my mommy!

eating my fries

15mths today!

2010-01-14T14:48:00.000-08:00

Seriously... where is the time going??? My babies are growing up and I don't approve!!!! :(

Every time I look at him my heart just melts. He will always be my baby boy no matter what and I just cant believe how fast he's grown and all the things he is learning as the days go by. He's freaking unreal... from one day to the next he learns a bunch of new things and just "knows" how to do things he didn't the day before.

In one week he learn how to stick his tongue out... well he's version of it which is SO FUNNY...cause he doesn't close his mouth and he sticks out his tongue with an open mouth... LOL!!! I'll get it on video to show you what I'm talking about.

You know when you make fun of people and you put your finger by your ear and make circles like to say "crazy"... well my son does that but he doesn't put his finger by his ear... he'll just bring it up and start moving it around and around... LOL!!!

He's also a PRO at mimicking EVERYTHING we do. Especially everything his father is doing. If Carlos is sitting on the floor... he'll go sit by him. Carlos leans on the wall... BC will follow. Carlos points somewhere... BC will point somewhere. I swear the other night he had Carlos and I in tears laughing. He's so silly!!!!

He LOVES to play fight with Daddy too. OMG... he is SUCH a BOY!!!! I love to sit back and just watch him. Makes me so proud to know that I'm his mama but to also see all the things he knows how to do is such a joy.

He has moved on from giving high fives to giving hand shakes... you know... cause he's "so big". ;-) He is also opening doors now. Lord... this started a few days ago so it's been driving us crazy because now we MUST lock all doors at ALL times. We have to watch him like a HAWK!

Right now we are teaching him how to eat all by himself. So far he'll get a few spoonfuls in his mouth the rest on his tray but it's a working process.

As much as it makes me so sad to see how fast time is going by I'm so proud of all his accomplishments and honestly... the days just get better and better with him. I'm really looking forward to seeing him grow up and all the new stuff he's going to be doing. Especially with his sister... I just know the future holds many many laughs!

Baby boy... if mama is ever able to explain to you just how much I LOVE YOU... I would... but honestly... there is no words for the love I have for you. Happy 15mths baby boy!

Being silly....

love this KID!!!!

Look at that smile... you cant help but smile when you see it

My son playing instruments for New Years... he LOVES music!!!! Oh... check out the outfit... isn't he just ADORABLE with his jacket and tie?!?! ;-)

Here are some video's of my silly monkey...

opening doors...

Princess Sophia 1wk old

2010-01-13T08:04:00.000-08:00

Cant believe that today marks one week of having my princess home with me. Why does time go by so fast????? I've been trying to stop it since I had BC and I still haven't figured out how but once I do you better believe I'm pressing that button!!!!

WOW... so much to say.... well lets see...

Today I've officially been a Mom for TWO for a week now and I have to say... it's the BEST job I've ever had. Not the easiest... cause boy it can be overwhelming but... the joy that my heart feels when I see my two babies... it's pretty PRICELESS!!! Yes... I do look like a HOTMESS...and I still haven't figured out how to add some "Me" time to the equation but the good news is I've managed to brush my teeth and take a shower EVERYDAY! Beat that! ;-)

I don't have everything figure out just yet and I have this feeling that tells me I wont ever get there but I do have some sort of system going on so that I get to spend time with BOTH BC and Sophia. Sophia does get a little more of my attention since I'm breastfeeding her but I always add some extra time for BC when she's not attached to the boob.

I was told by one of my best friends... "make sure you keep notes, because your going to be my "pro"... LOL..." Well let me just say right now... don't sit and think about "all the things you need to do" because that can cause you to have a nervous breakdown in the matter of a few seconds... believe me... I ALMOST had one while sitting on my couch looking at the MESS my house was and then looking at my two kids and saying to myself... "OMG... I'm a MOM of TWO!!!!!!!!"... Yup... I almost lost it but I managed to get some type of control and just say to myself... "one step at a time... the babies come first". So rule of thumb... as long as the "kids" are done... your GOLDEN!!!

BC... is the BEST brother you could ever imagine. I mean... I always knew he was going to be good to her but seriously... he has such a good heart and LOVES her soooo much already! She cries... he runs to find out what's going on, she's on the couch and he'll come over to give her kisses or to just look at her and then he points to her trying to get my attention, when I'm holding her he'll ask to hold her and if I don't give her to him right that second... forget it... he throws a fit! I know that one day... they'll will fight and not like each other for a while but for right now... I'm holding on to this cause I know he's always going to be the best brother in the world to her.

Daddy... is still a little nervous around Sophia because in his words "she's so tiny". LOL!!! Not to take his side or anything but it's true... she's my little princess. So he's EXTRA careful when he's holding her or has to do anything for her. He's totally looking forward to the days when she's bigger and he can really play with her. I told him... "you'll take that back... just watch". LOL!!!

My Princess... where do I start???? She's so loving and SUCH a girl!!!! She likes to get your attention by smiling at you every once in a while to show off her dimples (which I still haven't been able to get on camera but don't worry... Mama will WIN this battle!). She hates being in a dirty diaper (which she has ALL the time) so I have to change her quite often cause God forbid she has one for a while... I'm a horrible Mom if I let that happen! After she gets her bath (not full bath since I'm waiting for her belly button to fall off still) and I dress her up... she's in heaven... just loves to feel and look pretty. I tell you... Daddy is going to have his hand full when she gets older. :-) She is SUPER sweet though. I just love to hold her on my chest... it's like she curls up completely into me and we become one. Have I told you just how much I love her?!?!?

Breastfeeding... before I had her I told myself that I would give it a try and if it worked out then great but I wasn't going to put myself through all of those emotions like I did when I had BC because I was just in a horrible place thinking I was a "bad" mommy because I couldn't feed him right off the boob. I wanted to enjoy my baby girl... well guess what... it's been going GREAT so far!! Knock on wood!!! I went through the engorgement stage which let me tell you... I cried my eyes out because it hurt so bad!!! But Sophia and I tagged team that one together and she is feeding like a champ!!! She loves to eat so most of the day she is on the boobie but I'm okay with that. So I'm strictly breastfeeding her for now and hopefully I'll be able to keep it up for a while or until she gets some teeth going and the boobie will be done by that point. LOL!!!

Sleep... Sophia is a GREAT sleeper so far. She does have her nights where she wants to eat all the time and the growth spurs kill me but besides that she's awesome. For example.... last night I feed her at 2am and she didn't wake up till 6:30am this morning... so not bad at all. I'm not complaining and I'll take every little bit she gives me.

Bringing my baby girl home has been the most wonderful thing I've done since BC. Carlos and I are complete now. Our family is perfect!!! I'm looking forward to see all the wonderful ways my sweet baby girl is going to change us all... because so far... she's the sweetest blessing of all!!!

Here are some pics... Princess Sophia at a week old...

This is the bunny we made for her... it has her heartbeat in it...

Princess Sophia's Arrival!!!!!!

2010-01-09T14:08:00.000-08:00

I was 37wks and it was BABY time!!!!! My princess was coming and nobody could have stopped it!!!

On Tuesday 1/5/10 I went into my regular OB appt after about 3 days of having contractions at home, going to the L&D, and being sent home... boy was I tired!!! My OB saw me and told me... I wont let you spend another week like this so once you get some contractions head on over to the L&D and I'll talk to the Dr. on call about admitting you for good. I had a plan and had mixed emotions about it all but thought... she knows what's best for my sweet baby girl and I was going to stick to it.

I got home, took a nap, packed some last minute things and even cooked dinner early since I wasn't sure what was going to happen and when. Around 4pm my contractions started to pick up and I felt my stomach turn with nerves, anxiety, happiness, and sadness. I really didn't know how to feel at the moment. I knew the day would come where Sophia would no longer be just mine and after so long of going back and forth with pains and contractions... I "thought" I was ready to have her which I was... but I was still VERY sad to know that she was not going to be in my belly anymore.

Here is the timeline (I had Carlos writing all of this down... LOL... I know... I have OCD but I have it for BC and I wanted to make sure I had it for Sophia)...

5:45pm - we were on our way to the hospital, contractions were 2 to 4 minutes apart

6:20pm - we arrived at the hospital

7:00pm - they started to monitor me in triage

8:10pm - I got admitted and an I.V. was put in. Here is where I think I got so scared that THIS was ACTUALLY happening that I put my body into shock and ALL contractions just stopped all of a sudden! LOL!!!

9:10pm - contractions were back

12:30am - FINALLY we got a room on the L&D floor... this was brutal... we had to wait since they were SO BUSY for a room and got stuck in the triage floor.

January 6, 2010

7 am - YUP... you read that right... I went the WHOLE night without anything happening... my contractions had fully slowed down and since my regular OB wasn't on call till 6am the following day they basically just had us "camping out" until she got there. Pure torture when you just want to get things started and going considering I had BC with me the WHOLE time. THANK GOD he is such a good baby that you didn't here a peep from him and he even slept with mama! Seeing her was like a ray of sunshine! LOL!!!

7:05am - Dr. K attempted to break my water but her head kept bouncing out of her hand so she couldn't get to it. She also checked my cervix and I was still 3cm. She ordered pitocin.

7:25am - they started pitocin

8:50am - Dr. K came back in to break my water and this time she got it. WHOA... contractions were really going now! I did a lot of laboring on the birthing ball to try and help me through the contractions which helped but at one point I had to just stand up through my contractions because my lower back was KILLING me and adding any additional pressure to my contractions was just not a good thing.

10:20am - nurse checked my cervix because the contractions were really coming and I was in PAIN!!! Still 3cm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREAKING A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The nurse told me that my body wasn't having time to relax and that wasn't letting me dilate the way I was suppose to. She suggested me getting something to help with the pain... after thinking about it for a little bit I decided it was time for me to be able to rest a little and I ordered the epidural.

10:35am - epidural was put in

11:30am - cervix was checked... 4cm

12:30pm - was feeling pain again... had flash's backs of when my epidural stopped working with BC and was scared the same thing was going to happen this time. They were going to give me some more pain meds through the epidural but my nurse decided to check my cervix before because she had a "feeling" things were happening. Cervix check... 6 to 7cm!!!!!!! Wahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!

12:45pm - okay by this point I'm screaming... I HAVE to PUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The nurse comes running in because she doesn't "believe" me when I tell her that I cant hold it and I'm gonna push... she checks my cervix and I was at 10cm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sophia's head was about to crown and I was told "DON'T PUSH"... Seriously people!!!!!! They had nothing ready... they didn't think it was going to go THIS fast so my nurse calls for all nurses ASAP and puts in a call to Dr. K saying... she's 10 and the baby is about to come out!!!

12:55pm - Dr. K was just about to go into an emergency c-section... thank god for having Dr. G there to take her place so she came running into the room where I was. I'm screaming... I have to push and TRYING to breath through the contractions which are adding a LOT MORE pressure to the "pushing" feeling. They get everything ready for Sophia and for delivery.

1:04pm - Princess Sophia Arelis Terrero is born weighing in at 5lbs 11oz 19.5 inches long!!!!!! Within 6mins and 4 pushes later... no rips and she was OUT!!!! I started to crying uncontrollably!!! My little princess was here..... can you believe it!!!

Carlos cut the cord and they took her away to exam her. I'm scared... I remember just laying there praying to God to PLEASE make sure my baby was okay. I was nervous... I screamed out "what are her APGARS?" I hear the nurse say... 8/9. I start crying all over again. Because she was 3wks early they made sure they examined her fully and that things were okay so this meant I had to wait a little longer before I could see her (which was probably only a few minutes but for me they felt like an eternity)... so I'm just laying there crying thinking about how wonderful it was... how lucky I am... how amazing it felt... to have my little princess here with me. She was on the outside... I could show her off now. I was dying to get a good look at her and see what and who she looked like. Finally... I had my baby in my arms.

This whole experience was AMAZING. It was truly different compared to when I had BC. I was only in actual labor for 6hrs... pssh!!! I can totally do it again!! ;)

BC was GREAT throughout the whole thing and believe it or not... he was there the WHOLE time. They told us he could be in the room with me until I was going to push Sophia out which we were okay with but when it came down to it since things went so fast, my mom just grabbed him, gave him some Cheerios, and he watched nice and quietly. Once Sophia was out and crying... he was VERY interested to find out what the heck just came out of Mommy and why was she making all that noise! LOL!!!

I stood in the hospital for only 24hrs. We both got a clean bill of health and they let us go home. Things at home have been great... LOTS of visitors. BC LOVES his baby sister. I swear... he's been sooooo good with her. He always wants to hold her and carry her. Once he has her he'll "talk" to her but when she doesn't "talk" back... he's like okay so your boring! LOL!!! When she's in the pack and play and she starts to cry... he'll run over to her, peek over, and say "Mama"... like saying... Mom she's crying!!! It's SUPER cute to see them together. I'm sure this "love" will change at one point and they will be fighting but I'm just taking it all in right now.

Carlos is overwhelmed by his daughter. He's very careful and gentle with her. You would think he was a first time Dad!!! LOL... but you know... it's different this time because she's his little girl.

I'm still working on trying to get a hand of having 2 kids at home especially since Carlos has to go to work but I'm loving every moment of it. My family is now complete.... well at least for a while... ;-)

Here are some pics... and I PROMISE... more will come soon!

Thank you to everyone for keeping us in your prayers. Thank you for all the text messages and all the phone calls. Sorry I haven't had a chance to really get back to most of you but I once I get a hold of this... I'll get back to you.

Last belly pic... 37wks

While we were camping out... BC and I fell asleep together in the bed.

Princess Sophia is HERE!!!!!!

Is this my baby sister????

YAY!!!! she's finally here!!!!

My babies!!!!

Getting ready to go home!

L & D visits

2010-01-04T13:50:00.000-08:00

Seriously... I've never been to the hospital so much in my LIFE!!!! Things have been crazy for the pass few days here. Sophia has a mind of her own and this scares the BEJESUS out of me!!!!

Let me go back....

On New Years day I woke up from a nap at 1pm having some really really strong pains. It was not pretty and after about an hour of the pain I just couldn't take it anymore and we packed everything up and headed to the hospital. Got there at 3:30pm and didn't leave till 9pm. They tried everything... they put me on the monitors to see how close my contractions were coming and they were 2 to 3min apart. They gave me fluids to see if I was having so many contractions because I was dehydrated but that wasn't the case. Then they tried to give me a shot to stop my contractions and that didn't work. The nurse explained to me that if it was "real" labor the shot wouldn't do anything to them and the pains would come right back. If it wasn't then the pain would go away... guess which one mine was... "real" labor!!!! Finally the on call OB just decided that even with all the pains I was having, how close my contractions were, the fact that nothing was stopping them, and the fact that I had just spent the WHOLE day there... he was going to send me home with a pain killer because my cervix wasn't changing (I was still 3cm and 50% effaced) at this point. So we came home.

I thought I was in the clear when Saturday rolled around and I had no pains at all so I was happy with just the thought that I had an "answer" and was completely fine with her just staying in... Sophia had other plans....

Yesterday I woke up having contractions again but not strong enough to do anything about it yet. As the day went on my contractions got stronger and closer together. About 11pm I just couldn't take it anymore and decided to go back to the L&D. I got there and my contractions were every minute to 4mins apart and reaching the high 80's to 90's!!!! Nurse checked me and told me I was a "good 3cm and 80% effaced" now... I was sooooo upset to hear I was still 3 freaking cm!!!! SERIOUSLY people?!?!?!! Apparently my contractions are strong enough for me to huff and puff through them but not strong enough to change my cervix!!!! So I got sent home again last night.

I'm just EXHAUSTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now don't get me wrong... and those of you who take this the wrong way... already know how I feel about it... SCREW YOU and I can careless what you think. BUT... I'm not rushing my daughter OUT... I'm looking for some answers which is totally different. I'm told I cant labor at home for too long since I want to get the meds for GBS and to go in to the hospital when the contractions are strong and 3 to 5 mins apart... and I DO go... BUT get sent back home. You know... as a mom... you start to mentally prepare yourself to the idea that your daughter might get here so you don't freak out in the delivery room and then you have to switch that whole emotion off to the fact that "it's not time yet". I'm tired of the back and forth. If she's coming... then bring it on... if she's not... let her bake... BUT let me know which one.

I guess tomorrow will be my day to find out what's going on. I have an appt at 9:15am to see my regular OB and hopefully she can show me the "light" and tell me whats going on here.

Don't worry... I know things are going to happen when they are going to happen and I know I'm NOT the boss of Sophia (she has made that very clear)... but it does help me a little to know that maybe... just maybe I'll know a little more then what I do today.

Princess Sophia... you make Mommy smile just thinking about your personality. Boy are we going to have our hands FULL!!! Love you my sweet baby girl!!!!

Here are some pics I got of the monitor of my contractions. Not the best pictures since I took them with my cell phone and didn't have the best view but it's something. As you can see... the "humps" are the contractions and some are reaching the highest level!!!

Just Because...

2009-12-30T20:44:00.001-08:00

How can I ever have a bad day with this kid???? Have I told you just how MUCH I LOVE this kid!!!!!!

He was having mac-n-cheese and yogurt!

My son does "Monster"... be careful... he might come get you at night!!! ;)

Of course he's Latin and he LOVES to dance.... he's ALWAYS busting a move when he hears music...

36wks Appt Update

2009-12-30T20:08:00.000-08:00

From my last post you all knew that I was feeling completely hopeless and worried for my baby girl because honestly I just had no answers as to what was going on with her. Sorry I didn't get to update right away but last night we got home late and I was just completely exhausted.

So here is what happened:

I got to my appt at 1:45pm and I saw my regular OB which had already heard how I left the office in tears at my pervious appt. I explained to her what was going on and I told her I just needed some answers and how worried I was because I just didn't know what to worry about. She apologize a TON for her "partner" and excused him (which honestly I could punch him in the face if he wasn't 8ft tall!). She explained to me what was going to happened and what growth restriction really meant. She checked Sophia's heartbeat and measured my belly. Then she did a cervix check and I was still 2cm and 50% effaced and losing my mucous plug... which is completely GROSS!!! She told me that she wanted me to have an u/s done but at the hospital which I would also see a high risk Dr. who would be able to explain all the test and the results to me a lot better. Depending on what those test said was what our next step would be. So off to the hospital we went.

The hospital was PACKED and we ending up waiting for 2hrs!!!! We got there at 4pm and by 6pm they called us back. The first thing I got done was the u/s which was great because the u/s tech was sooo sweet and let us see Sophia for a lot longer then normal. She is now measuring 5lbs 3oz. Totally within NORMAL LIMITS!!!! Then I went back into the room where I got to speak to the high risk Dr. which was also wonderful with helping me understand everything and just sweet! After talking with her she put me on the monitor to check to see how Sophia was moving and how strong her movements were. We did that for about 30 minutes and she came in and told me... "She is doing GREAT!!!! Nice and STRONG!!!". I was very pleased with my baby girl... I swear to you... I think she totally knew they were watching her because she was on a roll with her kicks!!!

The high risk Dr. sat with me at this point and explained to me that I have NOTHING to worry about. Sophia is just going to be small like her mama but that it was OKAY because she is HEALTHY!!! I cant even begin to describe to you how wonderful it felt to hear those words. This pressure was lifted from my heart and I felt like I was able to breath again. IUGR (growth restriction) is when a baby falls into the 10% weight limit and Sophia was WAY ABOVE that mark.

See did notice that I was having contractions while on the monitor (nothing strong but they were there) so she did another cervix check and at this point she told me I'm VERY CLOSE to being 3cm. She laughed and said... I will see you back soon... :) and then told me I could go home.

WHAT a RELIEF!!!! It was like music to my ears. My baby girl is FINE and I was able to go home knowing that I didn't have to worry about her. God is GOOD!!!!

So as of right now... we are just waiting on Sophia to make her grand appearance. I have an appt on Tuesday and if I'm 4cm by that point they will automatically send me to the hospital to be induced so... its just a waiting game now. We'll see who wins... Sophia or my cervix. LOL!!!

I just want to take a moment and say THANK YOU to EVERYONE who had Sophia and I in your thoughts and prayers. We really felt all the love that was coming our way. We really appreciate it a LOT!!!!

I started an online poll to see who can guess when and how much she will weight... here is the link... cast your vote now!!!!

http://www.expectnet.com/games/PrincessSophia

and here are some pics:

Sophia's feet

36wks belly pic

and here are our bags... packed and ready to go!

33wk Maternity Pictures

2009-12-30T19:50:00.000-08:00

As promised... here are some of the maternity shots we took not too long ago (I was 33wks here). Alyssa does a FABULOUS job and as a BONUS she's an awesome friend. We always have so much fun at these shoots. Thanks again for everything Alyssa!!!

For this maternity shoot I wanted to do something completely different then last time which we did the beach and outside pictures. I wanted something a little more intimate. So we did this one at home and I even got the courage to take some "out of the norm" type of pictures which I'll keep between Carlos and I. ;)

Take a look!!!!

Merry Christmas!!!

2009-12-25T22:18:00.000-08:00

Christmas this year wasn't like our pass Christmas because I put myself on restrictions... but we still had a BLAST watching BC open his gifts. OMG... he got soooo spoiled!!!! He got a ball pit, extra balls for the ball pit, trucks with logos, a remote, big balls to play with, maracas, tonka truck to ride, leap frog puppy, pj's... the list goes on!!! My house officially looks like a daycare!!!

Carlos took BC with him to my in laws house for a little bit and I stood home. I took a shower and just put some pj's on and waited for them to get back. Once they got back... we all got to open our gifts!

BC is a PRO at opening gifts and making silly noises when he would see his gifts... LOL... he had us cracking up!!!

Hope everyone had a WONDERFUL Christmas... we sure did. :)

Here are some pictures!

BC would NOT let that cookie down for nothing in the world... not even to open up his gifts! If you look closely... he has TWO in his mouth! :-)

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!

With Mommy... okay please excuse the fact that I didn't even comb my hair... I'm telling you... I've been LAZY!!!!! ;)

and Daddy

thought I would see if they taste good

that was SO MUCH FUN... when can we do it again?????

Okay this is a VERY short video that Carlos sent me over the phone so it's not the greatest but I just had to share it with you. This is at my in laws house, they have a train that goes all around their tree and guess to got to the remote and starting playing with it ALL BY HIMSELF?!?!?!?! Ok... I'm talking about... he knows what keys to press and how to get it working without anyone helping him... how can a 14mth old KNOW THIS ALREADY!!!!! I swear he is SOOOOO SMART and SUCH a BOY!!!

Play close attention... you'll see the big remote in his hands and watch the train go round and round, he presses the key for it to go "choo- choo" and even makes it go backwards!!!!!

35wk appt update

2009-12-25T21:22:00.000-08:00

On Tuesday I had my 35wk appt and it took me a while to finally update you guys because I had to process a few things on my own before I shared anything with anyone.

My appt was... good in a sense but scary in another. I've been counting my blessings so I'm just going to say... "good".

I went to this appt alone because Carlos was super busy with working doubles at UPS (holidays are crazy busy for him) and honestly... I didn't think I was going to need anyone there with me. Anyway...

I had my u/s first and it went great. I got to see my baby girl and she showed me a glimpse of her beautiful face... I cant even describe to you how my heart just warmed up and I felt this sense of peace and connection with my sweet girl. It was like time had stopped for a few minutes just so we could stare at each other and pass sweet wordless words to each other that no one could hear but the two of us. As tears rolled down my cheeks I just whispered "Mommy loves you..." and she just smiled back at me and then yawn... like she was exhausted but didn't want to go to sleep until she saw her mommy.

I got to see her practice her breathing and boy was she showing off. It was amazing to watch. I watched her pass her movement test and the u/s tech reassured me that she was a girl. They were trying to get her measurements to see how big she was but it was really hard for her to get a good reading since Sophia is so low on my cervix that it took her about an hour just trying. Once she got it she told me that Sophia was measuring a "few days" behind... she is measuring right now 4lbs 11oz. My mommy guard went up and I started to ask questions "should I be worried?", "what does that mean?", "is there anything I can do to help her?", etc... Thinking things were okay because I was only 35wks which meant she had 5 more weeks to go (or until she decided it was time to make her grand appearance) she would put on some weight... I felt that she would get where she needed to be... she was just taking her time... like any girl would.

Then I went into the room to see the OB. I had to see another OB because the one I usually saw was out that week. So he comes in, does my Group B test and checks my cervix. From here things got a little blurry... all I remember was him telling me that Sophia was not growing the way she needed to and he was going to induce me next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just sat on the table totally confused and for a minute there I could have sworn he was speaking a different language. I finally just cut him off and said... WHAT?!?!?! What are you talking about??? What do you mean NEXT WEEK... that would only put me at 36wks!!!!!!!! That is TOO early!!!!

At this point I was HIGHLY pissed that I didn't get to see my regular OB because this guy wasn't giving me an answers and I NEEDED answers... I NEEDED him to EXPLAIN to me what was going on. All he kept telling me was that I was going to be induced next week but would tell me WHY exactly. I was getting the point that Sophia was a few days behind on weight but I was thinking... maybe she just takes after me... I'm ONLY 5'ft people!!!! Or she has a few more weeks... I'm sure she'll gain something from here to there... right? He wasn't explaining it to me and I just finally told him that I refuse to let him induce me without telling me exactly WHY. Listen... I'm her MOMMY... so if she's in any kind of danger... you BETTER BELIEVE that I would be the first one to say... take her out. But I need you to tell me that... not beat around the bush because your trying to rush me out of the room to go on with your day... SCREW YOU!!! This is my baby your talking about.

I did leave the office with no answers, in tears, and scared shit-less (excuse my use of the word but there is no other way of explaining the fear I felt when I left there). I did have a meltdown in my car... and I did cry the rest of that day... I just know that I have to protect my baby girl but I didn't even know what I was protecting her from. Worst feeling ever!

I pulled myself together that day because I knew that no matter what... me scared and crying all day wasn't going to help my baby girl. I spoke to a few friends and tried to figure out what was going on and the best guess I have is that Sophia has Intrauterine Growth Restriction (IUGR) which is just a fancy word for her being smaller in size. What happens is your placenta doesn't/stops providing them with all the nutrients they need so they don't get as much food so it causes them to be smaller. Again... this is my diagnosis... which I'm about 95% sure it's true (or what the OB was trying to tell me) she has.

He didn't give me anyways or things I could do to help her gain some weight which doesn't work for me since I just NEED to do whatever I can to help her out so I did some research. I found out that protein shakes are usually given to women that are diagnosis with this to help the baby gain some weight, lots of resting, and water help a lot. So guess what I did... I put myself on "restrictions"... not full bed rest but TONS of couch time and I'm drinking protein shakes. If you know me... you know that this is a HARD thing for me to do... since I cant stand to drink those things... but guess what... I have been doing it... I cant think of myself... must think of Sophia.

I'm worried sick for my baby. I worry everyday about her and if I DO get induced next week... I think about the challenges that might bring and if I'm strong enough to actually go through them. I worried about Sophia's health all the time. I put my worries all into prayers... I pray for my baby girl every night.

I'm sorry if I'm leaving you with really no answers as to what is really going on but honestly I WISH I had some answers... but I don't. I have a ton of questions myself and plan on asking each and every one of them at my next appt with my regular OB.

My next appt is on Tuesday at 1:45pm. This will be the day I found out what really going on and if I'll have my baby girl in my arms before the New Year.

All I can ask of you is to please send prayers my way for my sweet baby girl Sophia.

Toddler Bed... this is happening WAY too soon!!!!

2009-12-21T22:06:00.001-08:00

I just cant believe that we converted BC crib into a toddler bed about a week ago and he has been sleeping in it just fine. Where did my baby go?????? :(

I noticed a while back that he was just NOT having his crib anymore. Every time I would put him down for bed he would wake up right away and cry because he wanted nothing to do with it. I was in denial for a couple of days and just let him sleep with mama because I refused to think that my BABY would be ready to sleep in a "big boy bed".

The denial didn't last long and I told Carlos "I think it's time"... :( We all went in his room and Carlos started to get things going... BC was ALL ABOUT IT!!!! You should have seen him helping Daddy the entire time! He was so happy, clapping and smiling away.

That night I couldn't sleep. It felt like the first time BC had ever slept in his crib alone (when he was 3mths old)... all I did was look at the monitor to see... just maybe... he would need me... or he would cry so I could run in there and get him... NOPE... no such luck... he slept perfectly fine.

I have a BIG BOY now.... :(

Daddy, don't worry... I got this.

We need to use this one Daddy!

Let me check these instructions...

YAY!!!! I'm getting my big boy bed... FINALLY!

with all this work... I need a drink of water!

Yup... it's nice and comfy

passed out!!!! His first night sleeping in his toddler bed

I did have to go in there to re-position him... LOL...

A Letter to My Princess

2009-12-16T19:03:00.000-08:00

Hello Princess Sophia,

Mommy is sitting her on the computer while Daddy and your brother are sleeping, thinking about you. I had a nice long shower and while rubbing my big o'belly I thought about how in just a short while you will finally be here. You will be in Mommy's hands instead of my belly. It makes me sad a little bit because not that you'll remember but I'll miss our nightly chats, rubbing a TON of lotion on my belly, our daily fights since you have decided that you are Mommy's boss and will come whenever you want and if Mommy wins by taking it easy and drinking lots of water... you say "well I'll show her" and you get the hiccups so Mommy is feeling it in places she shouldn't or you try to come out of Mommy's side... which we all know that's impossible but you've come close! ;) I'm going to miss not sharing you and just having you all to myself.

Even with all of this... Mommy is SO EXCITED to meet you. I cant wait to see what your pretty face is going to look like, to feel your soft baby skin with my face, to snuggle my face in the deep layers of your neck and get a nose full of that "sweet baby smell", to hold you close to my heart where you will feel right at home since you know the sound of my beating heart, and to just meet MY PRINCESS!

I will tell you that Mommy is just a bit nervous. I sit back and think about your brother and how I had all the time in the world to focus just on him and with you here I'll have you both to look after. I think to myself... "Will I be able to be a good Mommy to both of you?"... I doubt myself just a little, even though deep down in my heart I know that Mommy will move heaven and earth for you and your brother so I'm sure things will be fine in the long run. I do want to tell you my sweet baby girl... Mommy isn't perfect but I can promise you I will try with all I have to make you happy.

I cant wait for you to meet your Daddy and your brother. They both are waiting for you and cant wait to meet you. Daddy is AMAZING!!! Your gonna love him. I already know your going to have him wrapped around your little finger even though he "swears" that's not going to happen... HA!!!! I should bet him some money on this one! ;) And your brother... he is the BESTEST brother in the whole world. Ever since Mommy knew you were in my tummy I would show him my belly and he would give you LOTS of kisses and hugs. He KNOWS you are in there and he even looks for you from time to time. He'll come over to me and pull up my shirt and I'll say "Did you find Sophia?" and he'll give me a BIG cheese smile and then lay his head on my belly.

I MUST warn you though... life with these two wont be easy. Daddy has already "talked" to your brother about what you can wear... which right now consist of sweatpants and turtlenecks, who and when you can date... not until your 30 and he has to pass BOTH Daddy's and Carlos test, and your curfew... wait according to them... you don't have one. But don't worry... Mommy is still the boss here and we'll have to get each other backs with these MEN!

I look forward to having a little princess. I KNOW your going to be a handful... I just know it... you have your mama's attitude already! Lord help me! ;) But I don't care... cause your MINE and I wouldn't change that for the world!

Baby girl... I just want you to know... you are MORE then LOVED and you complete our family.

Love Mommy

P.S. I know when you hear these songs your gonna smile because I sing them to you all the time. These are dedicated to you my Princess.

Good Morning Beautiful by Steve Holy
God Must Have Spent a Little More Time on You by NYSNC

33wks and still baking!

2009-12-08T19:36:00.000-08:00

Today I had my 33wk check up and things were good. Sophia has been good and didn't make Mommy dilated anymore so that was AWESOME news. I am still thinning out and getting really soft as my OB put it but she's okay with that for now. Sophia's head is REALLY low... I mean REALLY low... just to tell you how low she is, I'm feeling her hiccups in my booty!!!! I asked Dr. Kareem today about it and you should have seen her face... PRICELESS... you can totally tell she wanted to laugh... LOL!!!! She just said "I'm not surprise your feeling them there cause I can feel how low she is".

I'm measuring 2wks ahead (so 35wks) and while doing my cervix exam she asked me how big was BC at birth and I told her 6lb 13oz... she goes "I have a feeling she's going to be bigger then he was".... YIKES!!!! My mind raced back to my labor with BC and did she FORGET that he got STUCK TWICE on me!!!!

The game plan:

For now we're just taking it one day at a time. She's going to do an u/s in two weeks (Dec 22nd) to check on Sophia's weight and position. Based on that we'll see what needs to get done and when. But she's thinking that we might have to induce around 37/38wks to prevent her from getting stuck. WOW... that means that probably in less then 5wks I'll get to meet my PRINCESS!!!!!! I cant wait for my u/s... I miss seeing my baby girl. I know I'm not going to get good pictures of her face since she's so low but I'll take a knee cap!!!!! :) I'm okay with her face being a surprise... just a glimpse will do for now.

I know I've said this a gazillion times before but I cant believe how fast things are happening this time around. I as uncomfortable as it's getting harder to carry her (with her sitting/resting on my pelvic bone) I swear I would keep her in for a few more months!!!! I just don't feel ready and I feel like I'm going to MISS her a ton when she's not in my belly (you would think she wasn't mine and I wasn't going to take her home with me) but it does... I love being pregnant and I guess it's just a little sad to know that this part is almost over. Good thing is I know what I have to look forward to... and that's having my precious little girl in my arms to hold for as long as I would like! Nope... I'm not sharing!!!!! ;)

No belly picture this post because I have my maternity pictures coming soon... so I'll post those as soon as I can. :) Oh... on the weight... I gain 1lb... so that makes a total of 15lbs so far. As we were walking out of the appt Carlos goes "are you SURE the scale is right... only one pound"... LOL!!!! Douche!!!! ;)

Trouble Ones?????

2009-11-30T20:53:00.000-08:00

Okay people.... why did NO ONE warn me that there IS a such thing as trouble ones?!?!?!? What's wrong with you people... I'm over here sharing details about my hemorrhoids so nobody has to go into something blind and you guys don't even warn me a LITTLE!!! Thanks a lot!

BC has been on a roll lately and BOY is he testing the water!!! Mama has found some new patience she didn't even know she had!!!

My cute little baby has turned into this bitter, slapper, look you right in the eye and I'm gonna do it anyway, throwing tantrums, and making you run after me baby!!! I swear... I'm AMAZED at how they "just know" how to do these things automatically!

I know some moms wont even dare tell you about this or for that matter show you these videos but I'm not like any other mom. I LOVE my SON to the fullest BUT I can still be honest and pray that this is a "phase"... if not... you'll be seeing a lot more pics of BC with black eyes and a fat lip!!! ;) Who am I kidding... even when I throw my fits up in the air and tell him "your gonna get one of these"... you know what the little stinker does... he LAUGHS... right in my face like saying... Please Mommy... whatever! LOL!!!

On to the proof!!!!

My poor Romeo... the abuse he gets... this is how BC decides to have a "little" laugh... he runs after him with his turtle and then cracks up when he hits him with it!

Anger management problems???? He does this to poor Romeo face all the time... and Romeo knows better then to do anything to BC. Believe me when I see it I stop it... so don't call doggy abuse on me!

This is my monkey in disguise... I SWEAR to you... he climbs EVERYTHING and ANYTHING!!! Even things that aren't suppose to be climbed. Then he claps and says "YAY"! LOL!!!! This is why I cant my eye off of him for one second!

Here is he's new thing.... He just started doing this one a couple of days ago. Check out this tantrum... whenever he has something he's not suppose to we'll take it away from him after chasing him around and then he throws himself on the floor and does this... its sooooo funny though because he's SO LAZY like his mama that he gives up within a few seconds and stops... LOL!!!

another Romeo abuse moment... Romeo is eating peacefully and BC goes in there to "kick" him... usually he'll kick him and then hug him so that's not that bad right?!?!

Please pray for me that this is a phase... and that it goes away soon... wait... I think I'm screwed and this is just a "boy" thing!

A Baby Shower for My Princess Sophia

2009-11-30T20:00:00.000-08:00

My baby shower for my PRINCESS was WONDERFUL!!!! I had such a great time hanging out with those that wanted to celebrate my little girl. It was craziness trying to get things ready the night before and the morning of but it was worth it.

Sophia was BLESSED with a clothes FULL of clothes and other wonderful goodies. It was nice to have a gathering where I didn't feel rushed or felt like I had to get it "over with". Daddy was upstairs with the guys and BC got to hang out with me and all the other ladies... and let me tell you... he enjoyed it SO MUCH!

Let me take this moment to tell you about these WONDERFUL MOMMIES I know... I'm part of a Mommy board called MMT (you might have seen me post about it on FB) anyway... we have been together since I got pregnant with BC... actually the board was for all October Mommies so everyone there was having an October baby and we have been REALLY close friends ever since. These mommies are SUPER SPECIAL... and SUPER slick! :) Two weeks before my shower they helped me planned a surprise shower for Stephanie and it was a HUGE success... I had NO IDEA that they would turn around and do the same for me. When Steph got to my house I didn't even notice the gifts she brought (again I had NO IDEA) and after I was taking pictures of everything I realize and said to myself "WOW... Steph really brought a LOT of gifts with her"... I even told her... "I'm going to KICK YOUR BUTT"... LOL!!! Then she told me what happened. I didn't know if I should cry or smile at that moment...I was so touched. You ladies... SERIOUSLY... all I can say is THANK YOU... Thank you for being SO WONDERFUL and for thinking about my princess and me. You will NEVER understand how much that means to me. LOVE YOU LADIES!!!!!

Like I said... the shower was AWESOME and I had such a FABULOUS time. Thank you to everyone who came out for that day and spent it with us. It means a lot!!! Thank you for all the wonderful gifts you gave my little princess... she's going to look so cute in all those outfits!

The cake!!!!!

Close up of what it said... "Princess Sophia is on her way"

Steph... my sneaky friend that put together the surprise for my shower... LOVE YOU!!!! Thank you soooo much for everything you did!!!! Cant wait to meet Parker and to take pictures of Parker and Sophia together! (for those that don't know... Steph is due about 2wks ahead of me... I'm honored to have her as my dear friend and to share such a wonderful bond of having our precious babies around the same time!)

My mom and me

My sisters... from left to right... Chula (Frances), Me, Anna (who's 18wks pregnant), and Loraine... we are still missing one... she was in Miami.

I fell in LOVE with this... April (from MMT) made Sophia this for all her hair bows (and she made her the CUTEST tutu too!!!)

The double stroller they got me... YAY!!!!!

BC is SUCH a HAM... every time I would open up a present he would rise his hands up in the air and then clap saying "yay"... LOL!!!! It was adorable!!!

This was SUPER cute... her aunt got her her first doll and guess what her name is.... Sophia!!! If you look closely you can see it on the tag.

and because Jasmin wants me to be styling... she got me this AWESOME diaper bag... it's juicy couture

Again... thank you to everyone. I had a BLAST and I hope you had a good time too. Soon you'll be seeing pics of Sophia in all of this stuff!!!!

30wk OB Appt

2009-11-30T15:59:00.000-08:00

30 weeks already!!!! WOW!!!

I went in for my appt just like I always do but this one shocked me a little. After telling my OB about the contractions I've been having she decided she was going to check my cervix to see if anything was happening down below. I'm thinking to myself... this lady is crazy... I'm only 30wks!!

Well to my surprise Miss I'm not going to listen to my mama Sophia has decided that she wants to move things along a little faster then what they need to be. I'm thinning out as we speak and I'm a fingertip dilated. Now this isn't so bad when your 34wks or so but I'm ONLY 30!!!!! Of course I freaked out and told her that I REFUSE to push this little girl out before 37wks (like it's up to me right???)

She told me shes not going to put me on bed rest right now but that I need to start taking it easy and she's going to check my dilation at my next appt... if I'm continuing to dilate then bed rest might be our next option.

We discussed the fact that I have lost some weight which isn't good when I've only gained 14lbs so far this pregnancy but she said she was going to let me slide this time but not to let it happen again... Oops!

We talked about the delivery I had with BC and I told her that I wanted to get the meds for Group B even if I test negative for it because somehow I managed to get it during labor with BC and I wasn't planning on taking a chance with Sophia and she agreed. So meds when I get to the hospital. I also pointed out the fact that I was pushing for 4.5hrs and that BC STILL got stuck TWICE on me and I wanted to try and prevent that from happening as much as I can this time around... plan is at 37wks she's going to do an u/s to see how Sophia is growing and if she's weighing 6lbs 13oz (BC birth weight) or more then we will induce at that point, if not she has time to bake! :)

I guess that was it... but let me tell you it was MORE THEN ENOUGH. Mama left there nervous and had a talk with Miss Sophia and told her she CAN'T come yet. I need her to bake a little longer because I refuse to have another baby in the NICU... I WILL do WHATEVER it takes to keep her in as long as I can... I told her I was the "MOMMY" and she needs to listen to me ;) Well see how long that last! She has a mind of her own... I already know it and she's not even out yet!

So I'll keep you updated... until next time. :)

Here is my 30wks belly pic!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

2009-11-30T15:36:00.000-08:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!

I didn't get a lot of pictures because I was busy eating LOTS of food but here are a few! :)

Mom with her daughter and some of the grandkids

Mom and her girls

8yrs Together - 4yrs Married Anniversary

2009-11-13T17:21:00.000-08:00

On Thursday 11/12 was our anniversary. Every year we really don't celebrate it much because we always have other things planned but this year I told Carlos that we needed to celebrate it no matter what. It's time we start making some time for ourselves and I have to tell you... it was SO MUCH FUN!!!!

Dear Carlos,

These years together have been tough, happy ones, sometimes sad, but most of all AMAZING! Who would have thought that when we started dating it would grow into this unconditional love... we have faced a lot of bumps down the road but we ALWAYS fought them together which is the most important thing. You've never left me and I will never leave you.

I thought the day we said "I do" was the most fantastic day but I was wrong.... that was only the start of "fantastic days" that we would share. Together we have made the most beautiful babies in the world. I can not even begin to show you how grateful I am for them. We have such a perfect family.

Thank you for all the amazing ways you LOVE me. Thank you for the wonderful babies you have given me. Thank you for still knowing how to make me laugh when I'm down. Thank you for loving me the way you do.

All I can tell you is... I LOVE YOU! I hope that with saying those three words you know exactly how much and what I mean by it.

You are my soul mate.... my lobster.... what people long for.... you are my EVERYTHING!

Love,

Your Wife

29wks with Sophia Arelis

Video's of My Main Man

2009-11-13T16:50:00.000-08:00

Here are some video's of BC... I swear I was cracking up watching them as I was downloading them.

Here is BC dancing... he hears music and he's all over it! Sorry... this one came out so dark... I forgot to put some lights on... but you can still see him break it down. :)

Here he is throwing besos (kisses)

Here he is riding his bike

Trick-Or-Treat!!!!

2009-11-06T06:07:00.000-08:00

We had a FABULOUS time on Halloween. I invited my sister's over with the kids and we made it a taco night. They all got here and we ate a TON of food... then it was on to carving the pumpkins and trick- or- treating!

I refused to go out during the day time because it was just WAY TO HOT outside. So we waited till around 7pm and it was great because we had a nice cool breeze. We went around my neighborhood which turned out pretty well. We only got to do half the neighborhood because all of us were tired but the kids got a TON of candy!!!

BC had SO MUCH fun trick- or-treating. At first he was like "What are we doing out so late and why are all these strange people looking at me"... LOL!!! But he warmed up and gave smiles to everyone.

Check out the CUTEST little monkey you've EVER seen!!!!

the kids ready to go

My sister and her family expect for Angeliz who was at Sea World

My family... BC was looking at his cousins and saying "HEY... wait for me!!!" See even Baby Girl joined in! ;)

Time to crave the pumpkin!!!! BC wasn't sure about that stuff!!!

Our FIRST pumpkin!!!! Carlos did a GREAT job with it!

Can you find baby girl????

Happy Halloween!!!!! Baby Girl at 27wks

Pumpkin Patch Time!

2009-10-30T06:38:00.000-07:00

On Wednesday we finally got a chance to take BC to the pumpkin patch and he LOVED it. He was amazed to see so many pumpkins in one place! LOL!!!

We just let him walk around and play with all of them. It was so nice. Last year I wanted to take him but with him being so tiny I knew he wouldn't enjoy it as much as he did this time.

Here is my little guy enjoying the pumpkin patch...

Daddy I think I like this one

Let me smell this one

with Mommy

and Daddy

maybe this one will taste good

yeah no that didn't work

think this will help my headache?? ;)

which one should I pick???? Decisions decisions

peek-a-boo!

the pumpkin we picked and bought!

and just because I'm cute!

26wks... 7mths.... 3rd Trimester!!!!!

2009-10-26T06:43:00.000-07:00

HOLY MOLY.... when did this happen?!?!?!?!?! Honestly this pregnancy is going by toooooooo fast! I was asked yesterday if I was "ready" for her to come and I have to say... NO!!!! Not even if she was all "done" and finished baking. I'm just enjoying every moment I have with her alone in my belly. See... I'm a "little" selfish when it comes to my babies and I know that the minute she's out... I'd have to share her. Plus I'm just having fun with her inside of me and I'm in no rush to have her out yet. Don't get me wrong... I just turned 7mths so we'll see how I feel when I'm 9mths... but for now. No thanks! ;)

Things overall have been going really good with her. It's weird how different this pregnancy feels from BC but I guess what they say is right... "every pregnancy is different".

Lets see...

The pains (BH cx)... OMG... I have been getting them since early on in this pregnancy but I tell you... they are nothing like I had them with BC... they are a LOT stronger... not stronger in the sense of "OMG I have to go to the hospital"... but "OMG... these things HURT and are STRONG". With BC I would get them and it was just my belly getting tight so I knew I was having a contraction... this time... I'm saying "okay getting a contraction here... OUCH!".

RLP (round ligament pain)... stretching... you can really feel things expanding in there! I still remember this one time I was running some errands with BC and when I got home... holy crap... the pain just kicked in!!! I was just saying "OUCH OUCH OUCH".... and I had to sit down the rest of the day and put my feet up because it hurt to even move!

OMG... the PIMPLES... okay so you know your random pimple here and there... yeah well I'm NOT talking about THOSE. These are like an extra LIMB!!!!! and the places they show up!!!! Okay so for like a week I would sit down and feel this pain on my butt cheek but didn't know what the heck it was. That night I went on "discovery mission" and guess what I found... a HUGE PIMPLE on my BUTT CHEEK!!!! Who the heck gets a pimple on their butt check?!?!? Leave it up to me!

I think that about covers it for now. ;) But like I said... besides these small things that happen every once in a while... she's been good to her mama.

My appt went well too. Really not much to say about it. I've gained a total of 12lbs so far (most of that is probably the homemade chocolate chip cookies I eat every night) :)

I also had an u/s to see if we could get pictures of my little princess but she's just like her brother and wouldn't show us much. After an hour and a half of trying to get her to let us see and me wiggling my belly, jumping up and down, turning on my side.... she showed us a quick glimpse of her face and guess what she was doing... she was LAUGHING at us!!!! LOL!!!! I swear she totally knew what she was doing and when she looked at us she decided it would be funny to laugh at Mommy and Daddy. LOL!!! The u/s tech was quick enough to snap the picture since she only stood in that position for a few seconds... then she went back to not letting us see. My little one wants to remain a mystery... which is fine with mama.

I go back in 2wks... I'm already going every 2wks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where is the PAUSE button!?!?!?!?!

I have my glucose test... :( Hopefully I pass it and don't have to go in for the 3hr one! Anyway.. that's about it for now. I'll update you guys in 2wks!

Here are some belly shots...

26wks

I just LOVE my big 'o' belly!!!!

and here is the shot of my little girl laughing at us... I had to take a picture of the picture (I know... horrible) but hey I got it on here right! ;)

Birthday Week - PARTY TIME!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-26T05:59:00.000-07:00

Planning BC's birthday party was SO MUCH FUN. I enjoyed every bit of it. We had so much fun picking things out and planning all the games. Like every Mommy will tell you... it was a little sad because your running around trying to be "such a good host" for your guest that you don't get to spend as much time as you would like with the birthday boy. So I'm glad I had plan the whole week with him so it wasn't that bad.

Anyway... on to the fun stuff... here are some pictures of the party...

Cake table with favors

The AWESOME cake... it was more then I expected. Heather did a FABULOUS job with it! Oh and it tasted good too! :)

food table... if you look closely we put fake insects on the food.... heehee

Drinks and chips table

Decorations

MY MONKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BC and Sydnie.... come on... say the truth... you know these are the cutest monkey and piggy you've EVER saw!!!!!! Freaking ADORABLE!!!!!

Mommy and BC playing hot "pumpkin"... I know it's a little blurry

Here is another one of us... blurry again... but it's the only ones I got with my camera... I have no idea what happened with the setting.

Ready to sing Happy Birthday

Family picture singing Happy Birthday...

my monkey standing by his cake

Daddy and the birthday boy

the presents!

all the toys!

BC looking/playing with his smash cake the next morning

Since it was late the night before we didn't get to open and play with any of his toys so the next morning was like Christmas... he was SO EXCITED to see all his toys! We opened up a few of them that morning and still have a some to open!

By the way don't mind my pj's... it was COLD!

BC looking through all his gifts

I just want to take a moment to say THANK YOU to all of those who made it out to BC's birthday party. I really appreciate you guys wanting to spend this special day with my son. It was so nice to see you all!!!!! Thank you again!!!!!

Birthday Week - 1yr old pictures

2009-10-25T07:01:00.000-07:00

We took BC to get his 1yr old pictures at Portrait Innovations. It was the first time we had ever took BC to a "studio" to take pictures. At first he wasn't quite sure what they wanted him to do and was wondering why these "strangers" were trying to get him to laugh but then he warmed up and was a total HAM just like usual.

Look at my adorable MONKEY!!!! The monkey he's handing is the monkey we made him before he was born at Build - A- Bear. If you press his hand you'll hear BC's heartbeat!

playing with the pumpkins

LOL.... this face reminds me of the line "what you talking about Willis"

after all the cracking up... he was bound to get it... the drool mark! LOL!

Birthday Week - Hair Cut

2009-10-25T06:35:00.001-07:00

Getting BC's hair cut was a bitter sweet moment. As much as I knew he needed a hair cut I didn't want to see the curls go. I wanted to keep him my "baby" as long as I could and I knew that after the hair cut... he was going to look like a "big boy" and I wasn't quite ready for it.

The whole time we were there I was holding back tears as I watched them cut off his soft curls. He was so good with the whole thing. He didn't cry once and actually just sat there like a little man while they cut his hair.

I was very pleased with the way his hair cut came out. She did a great job with it. I still miss the curls every now and then but he still looks SO HANDSOME! ;)

Sitting in the chair trying to figure this whole thing out

check out that HAIR!!!! See why I had to cut it!!!!

getting his hair cut and playing with the bell on the car

the CURLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

checking out another little boy getting his hair cut too

almost done!!!!

getting the edges fixed

MOM.... what happened to all my hair?!?!?!?

ALL DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How cute is he????

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET BABY BOY!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-24T20:53:00.000-07:00

Dear Sweet Baby Boy,

On October 14th 2008 at 6:49am you were born.

This morning I walked into your room and got you out of your crib at exactly the time you were born and rocked you in the rocking chair. I had tears running down my face of how PROUD I was to be your Mommy but also trying to figure out how I manage to be so blessed to be your Mommy. You just laid in my arms sleeping... and I just rocked you back and forth.

I will remember this day FOREVER. This is the day I was BLESSED with such an incredible baby. My heart grew in a way I had never felt before in my life. It was a feeling only a Mommy can try to explain but when you try to find the words to explain them... it's just not possible. This overwhelming joy and love filled my body and I wasn't sure how or what to do with it.

This day... you made me a MOMMY. Just thinking back to how my heart ached with LOVE... makes me tear up. If anybody was to ever ask me what I'm most proud of... I would say without hesitation... MY SON. If you asked me what was the best job I've ever had... I would tell you... being a MOMMY. If you asked me if I would change the way labor went... I would say NEVER! All of these things have made me grow into the Mommy I am today and if I didn't have them then I wouldn't have you.

I cant even begin to tell you what my life was like before I had you and honestly... I don't even care. Carlos Manuel... you have brought such joy into our lives and we are honored to be your parents. Daddy is so proud to walk around with you and say... YUP this is MY son!!! And I... just LOVE everything about you.

It makes me so sad to know that you are all grown up now but I look forward to the coming years. Lord help me but I cant wait to see what new things you begin to do.

Today Mommy took you to BRU (Babies'R'Us) and I just let you run wild and you LOVED it! Your Titi Loraine, Titi Chula, fat boy and Valentina went with us. You played with every toy possible and managed to get lost a couple of times but don't worry... Mommy always found you. You had such VIP treatment... they gave you a crown, a balloon (your favorite), and announced it to the entire store that they had a birthday boy walking around and everyone who saw you, told you "Happy Birthday" and commented on how adorable you are... of course you always smiled at them especially if they were a girl! LOL!!!

Mommy let you pick 2 toys today and when we got home Daddy brought you a cupcake to sing Happy Birthday. You weren't too excited about the cupcake and wouldn't "dig in" but you still managed to taste it and get your hands dirty.

You were out like a light by the end of the day. I don't blame you, you had a BUSY one!

Always remember that my love for you is as high as the sky and as deep as the ocean. Mommy loves you so much my baby boy!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLOS MANUEL!!!!!

Love,

Mommy

BC had just gotten his crown and balloon... and he decided he could go home... LOL!

Birthday Boy!!!

playing with all the toys he could get his hands on

CHEESE!!!!! This is sooo much fun!

BC and his cousins... fat boy (Angel) to the left and Valentina to the right

one of the toys Mommy got him and as soon as I took it out the box... he decided this was how he was going to play with it.... LOL!!!

While Daddy was opening his other toy... he figured he would play with the box... BOYS!

his tool bench...

Ghost cupcake to sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my baby!

BC getting super excited for his cupcake

Mom... this "stuff" wont get off my hands!!!

okay I'm done...

Birthday Week - Early Birthday Presents

2009-10-24T20:12:00.000-07:00

BC was soooo excited to get some birthday present early! I just wanna thank two very close and dear friends of mine for sending these our way! BC loves it all!!!

Sabrina sent these over for us. She was so sweet and also sent Baby Girl some things too!

BC really loves this book. I leave it in my car now so that when we're on the rode he has something to play with and it entertains him the whole ride!

Sending Sabrina and her kids a BIG CHEESE SMILE... THANK YOU!!!! They actually made 2 quilts... one for BC and one for Baby Girl!

I have made some AMAZING friends on my mommy boards and I wouldn't trade them in for nothing in the world! We all met when we were pregnant with our babies and remain close friends till this day. On that mommy board we were all due in the same month so we all decided to send a secret birthday present to one of the babies on the board for their 1st birthdays. Brooke and Jack got BC and they did a FABULOUS job with his presents! THANK YOU BROOKE AND JACK!!!!!

BC telling Daddy... "I got this Dad... don't worry..."

Reading his birthday card

getting down to business... 1st present

its Elmo!!!

2nd present...

Mama... mama... can I take a bath now???

BC didn't want to stop playing with his present to open up the other one... LOL!!!

okay fine....

can I have some snacks now?

I put him inside the box afterwards and he had a BALL with the popcorn

Then he decided he was gonna try and eat it... didn't taste good!

BC playing with his new toys at bath time

Carlos Manuel Birthday Week!

2009-10-24T19:52:00.000-07:00

Last week was a busy week for us. We were getting ready for BC's birthday bash. It was a lot of work BUT so WORTH it when I look into his big brown eyes. He deserves it all! Get ready... pull up a comfy chair because I have TONS of updating to do! ;)

Here are some of the things we got ready for the party...

This is pretty much the theme we went with for his party... pumpkins!

Here are all the invitations getting put together.

What the inside looked like

outside of the envelope

when you opened it...

Getting all the favor bags ready!

All done!!! The ones in the basket were for the bigger kids and the ones in the pumpkin were for the babies/toddlers.

24wk belly update

2009-10-09T14:18:00.000-07:00

Things are going well with Baby Girl. She's moving a ton these days and making sure mommy knows when she's hungry. Other then that... she's been treating me really well. I have an OB appt on the 22nd and hopefully she'll let us see her face and give us some pictures.

Here are some belly pics for you guys...

24 wk belly pic

Mom whats up with your belly button?

BC is trying to be like mama... look at his belly! LOL!!

Great big hug for my sister!

11mth Update

2009-10-09T11:47:00.000-07:00

I know this update is late but given the month I've had... I can say I have excuse... that and the fact that it just makes me so sad to know that this will be the last update before my baby turns ONE!!!! I cant believe how close it is to his birthday.... I find myself crying thinking about it because I swear it's flown by right before my eyes. I must say to my HUSBAND.... THANK YOU sooooo much for supporting our family in a way that has allowed me to stay home with my baby and watch him grow.

BC has grown sooooooo much... it's ridiculous!! I swear to you.... it's day to day growth. Like one day he has no idea how to do something and the next day he's a PRO at it!

He is now RUNNING!!!! Not marathon's but he runs away from me whenever he knows he is doing something he's not suppose to or has something he knows he cant eat. It's soooo freaking cute cause while he's running he's cracking up so it automatically makes us crack up.

He is a VERY VERY LOVABLE baby. Every time he sees my belly out he will come over and either rest his head on it, give her kisses, or blow bubbles to play with her. Makes my heart melt!!! I'll be washing dishes and he'll come over and hug my leg... I swear this boy totally knows how to make me give him everything he wants! He loves his Daddy too... Carlos gets his fair share of kisses and hugs. He's still every bit of a boy too so he will smack you if you get too close for comfort or when he just doesn't want too ;-)

He is now on whole milk. I did half formula and half whole milk for a couple of days while I finished off all the formula I had at home and then he went straight to whole milk and I'm pleased to say he did completely fine with it. No problems at all!!!! Knock on wood!

He doesn't have many fall/winter clothes so I've been getting him a few things here and there and I've been buying him 12 to 18mths... well somehow in a couple of days 12mth stuff don't fit my baby anymore!!!!! So he's on 18mth clothing and wears a size 5 in shoes.

We have been extremely busy planning his birthday party... those of you who know me... know I have OCD when it come to this stuff. :-) I have a week till his party and I'm completely EXCITED for it. I cant wait to see everything come together finally. I must say that I'm happy that he's party is not on the same day of his actual birthday because I know that day I'm going to be a hotmess crying like a mad women both out of happiness and sadness.

Next week we have two very special appointments... one is for his first haircut (I'm still debating this one... I LOVE his curls and I just don't want to see them go!) and the second one is for his 1st Birthday pics!!!

Okay so I wont bore you with all this "boring stuff" anymore and I'll share pictures of my handsome baby boy...

Here he is "attacking" Daddy... if you look close you can see BC has his tongue out and is trying to lick Daddy's head... LOL!

Aww... I love my Dada!!! Hugs for Daddy!

Okay enough hugs... "attack" again!!!! :)

LOVE this one of them!!!

BC and Mommy

SERIOUSLY.... look at this face and smile!!!!!!!!!!!

Booty picture for you guys ;-)

He LOVES LOVES LOVES balloons. Every time I go to Publix I MUST get him a balloon before I even start any kind of shopping.

Here he is "escaping"... every time Carlos takes care of him he rearranges my family room to close every possible way out so that BC stays in eye's view of him... well BC is TOO SMART for Daddy and learn exactly how to get out when he wants too. LOL!!!!

Here is a video that I was taking of BC just walking around the house... if you pay attention you'll see BC come up to me and put his head on my tummy because my belly was out. You'll also notice that when I try to get him to do it again... he wants nothing to do with it. It's on his time ONLY! :)

BC loves his baby sister!!!!

In honor of my Grandma - Margarita Mercado 4/23/37 - 9/25/09

2009-09-29T10:01:00.000-07:00

Many of you know what my family and I have been going through these past few days... my grandma passed away and it has been so hard on all of us. We miss her dearly and even though we know she's in a better place now... and in no pain.... it's still hard for us to think that she will no longer be here with us in person.

My grandma wasn't your "typical" grandma... she was tall, strong, had this amazing energy, loved to play Bingo and Domino's, loved to wear cut up shirts (in the arms and bottom of the shirts), loved to smoke her cigarette's, and always talked about her "chino" (her "boyfriend" she was going to find one day). She sure knew how to make us laugh.

As a little girl growing up she played a huge part in my life. See every summer we (my cousins, sisters and I) spent every summer vacation with her in Puerto Rico. At first I swear I would cry my eyes out because I never wanted to leave my mom but after a while I would get use to it and then cry when we had to go back home! My grandma had a HUGE house... it was beautiful. She was the first person I ever watched my first "novela" (soap opera) with, she made sure we ate ALL our food no matter what she cooked and if we liked it or not, she would let us spend ALL DAY in the pool... I mean ALL DAY like we only got out to eat and then we were right back in it, she even showed us how to kill a chicken!!! They were totally our "friends" so can you imagine how traumatized we were when we saw them in our plates for dinner that night ;) I still remember the days that my sister's and I didn't have a care in the world... we would sit outside and gather as many snails as we could find and let them crawl all over our bodies... LOL... it was so much fun (well fun for a kid)... LOL!!!!! We would sit their and watch the "slime" they would leave behind.

My grandma was very strict with all of us but at the as time she thought us the value of childhood. She let us be kids and as we grew up she thought us how to become grown ups. Cooking was one of the things she loved to do and loved to teach. Man... could she cook!!!!

These past couple of days have been so hard but yet so much fun. As we all sat by my grandma's bed taking care of her we all talked about these wonderful memories we have. All the family came together and it was great seeing cousins we haven't seen in FOREVER!

It was such a blessing for me to be able to tell my grandma about her great -granddaughter that is on the way and having her spend time with BC was priceless. He was so funny... every time he went in the room he would wave hello to her and smile really BIG... it made her crack up. Before she slipped into her coma (the night before) she got to rub my belly while saying "Que Dios La Bendiga" ... May God Bless her to my little princess.

My heart is aching because I just miss her... I miss her and I'm so sad at the thought of not being able to "see" her anymore. Grandma I hope you know how much I love you dearly... how I'm going to carry you in my heart everyday and I promise to tell my children about how wonderful and truly amazing you were.

This part is for my mom....

Mom... I cant even begin to imagine the pain you must feel in your heart... how alone and sad it must be for you right now but I want you to know that even though I cant take this pain away I'm here for you no matter what you may need. I love you so much and I hope you know that you mean the world to me. Love you Mom!!!

Grandma... may your soul rest in peace!!!! You will never be forgotten and will always be LOVED!!!!

This was Christmas 2006.... Loraine (older sister), Grandma, Mom, and Loraine's daughter Lori

Grandma and my stepdad Luis dancing...

Here is the whole gang... just the girls. From left to right, back row: Loraine, Mom, Chula, Grandma, Peeky, Titi Judith, Me, Angeliz, Isa, Mari, and Lori

We are having a.....

2009-09-22T19:15:00.000-07:00

PRINCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you freaking believe it?!?! We are sooooooo excited and happy!!! I had an appt for Thursday but last week I called to see if they had any openings for today and they did. I didn't want to say anything just in case my little GIRL ( OMG I can say GIRL... my little GIRL) was going to be shy again and we couldn't find out.

The appt went good. The u/s tech was able to get all the measurements she didn't get last week and they all came out fine. She was still VERY shy and reminded me of BC because she had her little hands covering her face and didn't let us see her so we weren't able to do any of the 4-D shots. The u/s tech is REALLY sweet and told us not to worry that at our next appt we can try again so in 4wks I get to see my little GIRL again. Wahoo!!!!!! We did get a good shot of her "parts" so we know for sure that we have a HAMBURGER!!! :) Can you tell how excited I am!!!!!! ;)

Carlos had a HUGE SMILE on his face when they said GIRL... LOL... even BC was smiling!

We do have a name for her BUT Carlos wants to keep it a secret for a while so for right now we will just call her "Baby GIRL" :)

Here is a picture of her little girl parts.... sorry that I had to take a picture of a picture but I was tooo excited to wait!!!! :)

20wk belly pics!

2009-09-11T17:36:00.000-07:00

Okay so I cant do a 20wk update without belly pics right?! ;) Here are a few pics...

BC LOVES his baby brother or sister! He gives my belly kisses and hugs all the time... well he even smacks it at times... but it's all love right!

Hurry up and come out of there will you!?!?!

and here is a comparison of my belly with baby #2 and my belly with BC...

Baby #2... I think this belly is MUCH lower then what it was with BC. At the u/s we confirmed it Baby #2 had it's big fat toe in my cervix... s/he was playing with it! LOL! Also confirms why I've been feeling the baby's kicks on my bladder so much.

Belly at 20wks with BC...

Stinky Little Booger

2009-09-11T07:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my 20wk appt... my BIG u/s!!!! I was soooo excited yet so nervous and scared all at the same time. Don't ask me why (not like I haven't done this before) but still nervous.

We got there and they had a mix up with another appt so we had to wait like 45min before being seen. Totally sucks since I had ate some candy to make the little go crazy... which s/he was but by the time we got back to the u/s room the baby was tired. LOL!

The u/s tech was trying to get all the measurements she needed but Baby Terrero wasn't having it. S/he was upside down facing my back and wouldn't move at all. We tried giggling my belly and moving it around to see if that would help but NOPE... the baby said NO!

The baby was sitting Indian Style with his/her legs tucked under so we couldn't see the gender at all. Mommy was disappointed and sad but I have to say that throughout this whole pregnancy I have known this little one has a mind of it's own. S/he does things on his or her own.... not even if Mommy talks to him or her... so basically... this little one... is just a tad bit stubborn... like Mommy. ;)

As far as my appt... I was having contractions while she was doing the u/s ( I have been feeling BH cx for a little bit now but since my whole belly wasn't getting completely hard I thought it wasn't to bad or just thought it wasn't possible to feel them this early) so I was told to drink LOTS more water and make sure I empty out my bladder at all times cause those things can make me contract more. She's not worried about it too much now but she says that if I don't do anything now I can go into pre-term labor later on if it doesn't stop. Don't worry... Carlos got on that one right away... as soon as we got home he refilled my water bottle and has me drinking! :)

I haven't gained any weight either which again isn't too much of a worry just yet BUT she did tell me that I need to EAT A LOT MORE NOW... that was an order!!! She wants me to gain weight so she said bump up my meals and eat a lot of snacks in between. GREAT... like I NEED a reason to eat more! ;) That's okay though... I can TOTALLY do this one... :)

I got my results from my quad screen and my numbers are GREAT so I was really happy about that.

That's about it for now.... I have another appt in 2wks to try and get all the measurements, gender, and 4D ultrasound pics done... hopefully the little one will let us see then... :-/

My Baby is WALKING!!!!!

2009-09-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we went to the mall with Barbie and her 2 girls. It has an inside playground so we took the kids so they could run and play for a little bit. I SWEAR to you my son wasn't doing this earlier that day so when I saw him I couldn't believe it. He has been taking a few steps here and there but nothing like this before.... people he started WALKING..... WALKING... yup I said that right... WALKING... can you freaking believe it!!!!

I was sooo proud of him and at the sad time a little sad to watch my baby grow up right in front of me. I also carry my camera so I got it all on video!!!! :)

BC's first time going down a slide...

Okay check out my little guy...

I swear my boy ALWAYS has "chicks" around him no matter where he goes... this little girl was sooo cute. She followed him everywhere and thought he was soooo funny. Even BC was laughing... LOL!!! By the way the lady with the green shirt is my mom.

18wk belly update

2009-08-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

On Sunday I turned 18wks and I started my 5mth of pregnancy. I just cant believe how fast it's going this time around. This pregnancy is completely different from BC. I feel the baby move quite a bit but BC was much more active at this point. I think the baby is going to be much more relaxed and doing things on his/her own time. The little one is just way to comfy to be moving around much. I also think that my belly was a lot bigger with BC at this point....maybe it's just because I see it everyday.

Mama is doing well... loving the movements and LOVE to rub my belly. At night after I shower I sometimes just stare in the mirror and look at my belly in awe. I love being pregnant.... love the thought of taking care of my baby even before it is an actual baby!

In two weeks I have my BIG u/s appt and I cant wait!!!! :) Talk to you then!

Okay here is the belly shot... :)